Maundy Thursday

Daddy,
Season comes season goes, but You alone stand still and do not waver. I have had my fair bit of spiritual highs and lows, and in all these I just want to give You thanks for all of them. Even occasions where I might have developed the tendency to grow numb towards, occasions where I simply just overlook and fail to capture Your delicate movements in my life, occasions where I take for granted and assume one too many matter-of-course, I just want to commit that aspect of my life back into Your hands. Lord, take it from me and may You just grant me the sensitivity, the compassionate heart, and help me to understand and perceive the right feelings I should sense, the ways of Jesus. Help me to continue to be hopeful and joyful in the knowledge that You are near, and help me to understand Your heart.
On this maundy Thursday, when a certain friend question about the significance of such a term, Lord, I just want to commit this day into Your hands. It's a day of thanksgiving, an ironical arrangement when the best piece of news has to take place on the same day as occurrence of the Heaven's tragedy. O lord, how should we, that You would give Your Son for us when we were still sinners. We have so much iniquities- even at this moment as I write this blog, my ungratefulness prompted distractions from sneezing and even a lackluster efforts for a deliberate dedication- of time, of attention, of self. 
Some years back, I watched Passion of the Christ, and many commented that what You had gone through were many many times more- how can I fathom, but yet the knowledge faded with time. Like how You had been disappointed in the Garden of Gethsemane- Lord, help me to not doze off, and at each command and each calling You have given me, I seek that You will continually fill me and replenish, for a divine source of strength I have in You, and I want to claim the promise You made about those who are weary can come to You and not faint. So Lord, I pray for a rebuilding, that You will continually search my heart, and much like the God's chisel, You will just break me down in accordance to Your will and design.
Lord, those rant about the wake, even those about the closure, I have gone through a bit, nothing comparable, yet I pray for favor and discernment that those will indeed be pleasing in Your sight, that all those will bring glory to Your name as I seek to act in obedience. 
Lord, as I come to the end of the semester, and perhaps the transition to a new season, I pray for revelation. Each stint of excitement I have had when serving You, I pray for You to sustain them and keep the flame burning for You. That each time, I will find joy in the anticipation for Your great works to be unfold, and through all these, I want to give You thanks for the privilege to be an active participant and observer of Your good works! 
I just want to pray for R, E, B, K that indeed, You will just guard their heart, and as they go through this season in life, this season of growing and seeking and exploring new things, You will reign mightily in their lives. In Jesus name, I proclaim Your protection upon their development, that indeed boundaries will be set up to keep them within the Holy standards that You have yearned for. Lord, purify their heart, and raise them up to become true men and woman who are after Your heart. Lord, I commit them into Your hands, and pray indeed, for Your favor to be upon them, that indeed in all things, they will be able to see traces of Your mighty intervention, that they will have no worries, but to just go in faith and hope to proclaim boldly Your goodness in their lives! 
All these, I just want to continue to give You praise and thanks!
In Christ's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

The darkest moment in preparation;
In Garden G. my Lord cried in desperation.
A lonely forlorn figure,
destined to be abandoned by even the closest disciple.
"Spare me from this agony" my Lord plead,
Yet with eyes fixed on the fulfillment of Your purpose, He humbly concede.
"Let Your will be done",
thus, the Love message has come.
With Mercy lavished, the withholding of what we deserve;
And Grace given, the outpouring of that we do not deserve.

Matthew 26: 56
"But this has all taken place that the writings of the prophets might be fulfilled."