25- one step closer

Daddy,
2 books of Chronicles, shared between them centuries of Your goodness. I felt a striking resemblance. With the church, with my own personal life, with my relationship with You. It is mind-blowing how You have made that kind of covenant that always allowed Your stray kids to turn back to You. So many occasions we have tasted Your goodness, but in this sinful self we always deviated. From a reader's point of view, the kings seemed narrow and foolish, to not recognize that You have been, are and will be the Only Way; yet as I dwell deeper and drew the connections that I share with them, I realize that indeed apart from You I really cannot do much. It is the constant reliance on You that draws us near to You. Pride pries us away from You; denial erects a partition; temptation blurs the vision; stubbornness deafens the ears. What a reminder for us to remain faithful, a warning for us to not take things into our own hands, a promise that You are in every part of what is going to happen.
Daddy, I thank You for the group that I am in. The fellowship and the experience I thank You for them! Just as the thorn continues to prick within me, I pray for Your deliverance. Grant me Your peace and guide me in all my doings. Speak to me as You would to David, so that my head will always be orientated to Your presence. May Your voice be the steering force within me, and help me fulfill the task You have for me. Lord, I trust that You are the One who is always in control and I trust in Your promises in Jeremiah 29: 11 that You know the plans Your have for us, plans to prosper us and not to harm us, plans to give you a hope and a future. So Lord, I claim that promise and speak that of the cell that You have entrusted into my hands. That indeed You have a good plan for each and everyone of them, that through me You will bless them, that You will utilize me mightily to demonstrate Your prowess, Your love, and Your goodness in their lives. Lord, I pray for Benjamin, Ryan and Eleanor, that as they stand on the starting point of this long race, You will have their eyes fixated on 2 Timothy 4: 7. Help them to always look to You. Lord, mould them from within and may Your gentleness be upon them as they learn Your ways, to be more like You each day.
Lord, I also wanna pray for Timothy and Keith that You will continue to keep them as they continue to seek You. Lord, You are the King and Master of our lives, so Lord, I pray for You to continue to speak to them. They know what You have done, so Lord, I pray for You to work in their hearts. Bless them richly through Your faithfulness and bring them close to You always.
Lord, I pray for Joseph that as we arrive at this cross-road in our lives, that You will keep us and help us. May You strengthen this relationship between us, and may it be established ever more strongly with You as its centre. Lord, I pray for humility. Humble our hearts so that we will learn from each other, and may You grant us the gentleness and sensitivity. Help us to consider others better than ourselves and continue to strive to become more like You in every way!
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

A Savior King,
abandoned His throne to go through physical sting.
What great love He showed;
for our sake He endured.
So that today He can assure that He understands,
the pain and sorrow He withstands.

Philippians 2: 3
"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves."
John 17: 4
"I have brought You glory on earth by completing the work You gave me to do."

27-what?

Daddy,
Last Sunday's sermon talked about mana, and when translated it literally means what. With "what" You've fed Your people for over 40 years, and right now I think I'm stuffed with too much "what". Doubt kills faith, and when I asked if You are there, does that mean my faith is dying? I certainly hope not. 
The book mentioned about Your faithfulness, that I have been holding meaningful and wonderful conversations with You despite my ignorance because You hear us even before we open our mouth. Well, that's biblical, but I guess it's difficult to be genuinely convinced. I, for one, am still struggling.
Lord, I thank You for the 3 days. 3 days away from blog, but 3 days closer to people. Wonderful reunion dinner with the usually 'invisible' people exposed the struggles many less fortunate people, including the intellectually challenged ones, face especially in this faith; discussion with J reveals the constant strive to hit a balance between trying to be a Martha and trying to be Mary; and these many christians that have been placed in so many areas in my life only encourage and assure me of my walk in this faith. It is difficult, but it is fun at the same time. There are so much insight, so much realizations.
As I dwell on the book of 2 Chronicles, the story portrays a striking contrast of what our church is going through. 
Lord, as I come before You. I humbly bow my head and pray that You will speak to me. I am desperate to hear You and I yearn for Your presence. I continue to ask for the gifts and revelation from You but all these, may Your will be done. Let me walk in ways that are pleasing in Your eyes and keep me on this narrow path, that whatever initiatives of mine would be adopted as a purpose of Yours. Lord, keep me and sustain me.
I continue to pray for this new cell and pray for Your wisdom upon us as to what ought to be done.
The earlier entry was erased for whatever reason, but if You want to speak Lord, make sure I hear it.
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Seated on an oversized bench;
Tiny legs dangle over swinging to and fro,
Over uncertainty the legs dangle.
Colorful bench;
the greyscale I see with my eyes.
I'm a grumpy old boy,
my eyes fixed on that doubt.
Gently I've waited, and there have been times my inside fumes.
Yet I continue to wait for the thirst within continues to tug on that Holy discontent.

Psalm 27: 8
"My heart says of you, "Seek His face!" Your face, Lord, I will seek."

30- intercede

Daddy,
I thank You for the burden. I thank You for the impressions and I continue to seek You. Lord, will You just show me clearly what this plan of Yours is. I am of little faith, so Lord, I pray for You to strengthen this faith of mine in Your own ways.
Lord, for the merging of J and my cells, I pray for Your revelation. The missing piece pricks at the idea of the thoughts, and I trust that if it is of You, You will grant us the peace of mind. So Lord, will You just show us. Speak Your words, and we will listen.
And Lord, I want to pray for Eleanor. She is the only female in my cell, so I pray for Your Holy intervention. Guard all our hearts and help us to see Your plan for her. Lord, If this is Your plan, I will trust in Your supplication and guide me to guide her as she develops into a lady who is after Your heart. Lord, yet I pray for Your revelation as to how it should be done. I do not presume to glare at Your perfect plan, but little by little, I pray that You will show me the small ways on which I should follow. 
Lord, I want to pray for confirmation as well, that You will give us the assurance and affirmation of Your presence amongst us. Help us to seek You like how David and Solomon did. Speak to us Lord, and may our plans be pleasing in Your eyes, that our initiatives, You will adopt them into Your plans and make them Yours! Almighty God, I trust in Your powers and Your majesty, and everything that I do, I commit them into Your big hands, now and forever more. 
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child, 

Judah

Your lambs I've been trusted;
in faith my courage has been mustered.
I pray for Your cleansing  upon me;
to lead those little ones where You've designed them to be.

Psalm 119: 11
"I have hidden Your word in my heart
that I might not sin against You."
Proverbs 22: 6
"Train a child in the way he should go,
and when he is old he will not turn from it."

30- conscience

Daddy,
As much as I have been aware, I thank You for the tugging and pulling at my heartstrings to get me back here. The longing for You had never subsided over the past 4 days, and despite my disobedience and procrastination, You have never let me go. I confess of all my sins that had barred me from You. The guilt stricken, I leave it at the foot of the cross. Lord, it's been a long struggle, but I continue to trust in You that You are the God of all things, and You are still in control when it seems to have gone out of my control. Lord, I commit myself, my heart into Your mighty hands! In Your name, I denounce the clutches of lust in my life! In Jesus's most powerful name, I cast the spirit of lust out of my body. By the blood of the lamb I seek for cleansing upon my sinful soul, and pray that You will lay Your protective hands upon me. In my Father's Almighty name, I command the evil spirits that have been sent upon me to leave, and whatever curses that have been brought along to be returned unto the evil one in folds! 
Lord God, Heavenly Kind, I pray for deliverance, that You will keep me and guard me. Deliver me from all evil and lead me not into temptation. For Your name is Holy, and You are pure. Cleanse me and bless me, so that I may evermore dwell in the presence of Your heavenly presence. 
Amen!

2012- foresight 2012

The world before me,
Your love behind me.
Like the carrot and the mule,
fixated vision cast upon the temptation that I have been due.
Narrowed sight, deafen ears;
an oblivious plight, a beaten soul that stops to hear.
Your love behind me onto which I fall;
In desperation Your struggling child shall call.
Show me the purpose, reveal to me Your plan;
I yearn to follow You around the daily rose; beyond the forbidden, without the ban.
Only Your Word will I obey;
an instant response I will not delay.
An openness I share; I pray for Your love to bare.
That Jesus lives in me, how wonderful can a life be.
To the ends of time;
when the bell's surreal chime.
Back home I would come. 

34- in the grip of grace

Daddy,
I thought I had become numb to emotions. One hurt could really have been a hurt too much, that drown out all other emotions. I think I have been in that state for a prolonged period. Right now, today the flood is finally beginning to subside. At least I see the protrusion in the water of what had been the tip of a statue. I felt anger, felt forgiven, felt embraced, felt in awe. All these, in a day, and I got reminded of where I have wanted to be. Whatever joy, whatever satisfaction; yesterday's poem really spoke. I am just like the israelites, so vulnerable so prone to complacency. 
If I can give it a go, I want to dedicate this phase in my life to You and school. Lord, help me to target-lock onto those two. Let me now be distracted, let me be motivated, let me feel the keenness. I pray for genuine enjoyment and passion in this pursuit!
Lord, today I want to pray for 2 of my friends. 
I want to pray for my 8-years friend Daniel. Lord, I thank You for this friendship that even before I knew You, You've had him placed in a part of my life. Lord, I praise you for Your goodness, that You have kept it going even after 8 years, that despite so much differences in characters, You have kept us close. On this special day when he turns 21, Lord, I want to commit him into Your mighty hands and trust that he too has a purpose in Your plan. Lord, may Your works unfold and would You just use me and anyone mightily that he may come to acknowledge Your works in his life. May he finally see the truth, and may the truth finally be in him and set him free!
I also want to pray for Faith. I thank You for her heart, that she has been such a blessings to those around! I thank You for placing her in my life, that whatever evolutions, both of us have been moulded and changed in Your ways. Lord, You are the Healer and I pray for Your healing hands to be upon this relationship. That You will remove any remnants of any hurt, but really to grow together in this family of Christ. You see my struggle, but I trust that You are in control nevertheless. Lord, will You just help me commit my heart and let me not waver in any ways. And for her, Lord, I pray for Your presence to be with her. And like what the book mentioned, "say yes to God". So will You just grant her the willingness to always say yes to You in every command You give. I pray that You will bless this friendship and let it grow in many years to come.
Lord, on the eve of the eve, I also want to pray for the new cell. I want to continually ask of Your guidance and seek Your directions. Lord, will You just guide Your servants and open the eyes of our heart, that we may see Your purpose for any development. Help us to be in sync with You through any means by which You will speak. Talk to us for we desire to hear You and help us to say yes to You too! I pray for Benjamin, Ryan, Timothy, Keith, and Eleanor. These young lives, I will continually commit them into Your hands and help us to lead them onto paths that will please You. And as You speak to Joseph, I pray for discernment, that You will help him to hear You even clearer, and as he becomes convinced of this season of salvation, may he learn to rely You more and more to do Your works! 
Finally Lord, I just want to pray for myself. Will You just reveal to me what I ought to see. For I do not know Your ways, but I want to follow You. Will You just speak to me and give me any signs or visions of Your plans at least for this season in my life. May I lead it in ways pleasing in Your eyes. And I continue to pray and seek for Your gift of tongues. May You just help me to overcome my frailties and serve You with all my heart and soul!
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Images in their vagueness, a surreal spell of closeness.
Memories linger;
the story which began in the manger.
A thousand voices compete for my attention,
yet not one triumphs over the truth contention.

Isaiah 30: 21
"Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying,
'This is the way; walk in it.'"

34- complaints

Daddy,
I feel far and detached, even unworthy, or sometimes numbed. It seems like an impossibility, and often the human heart simply just refuses to care anymore. One day of an awesome encounter, then interval with a few not so awesome ones, and a final breaking point to mend the brokenness. I feel like the Israelites of the old, those whom Moses led, those whom had seen Your prowess but each time chose to return to their old ways. In some ways, I even attributed it to the abstractness of You in this life- so much reliance on my conviction that the may-not-be-You to be You. It is difficult, really, very...
Daddy,
Will You just help me? Now that I feel a wretched child; the unworthiness and the obliviousness overshadowing any form of passion. I am licking my own wounds, and grinning at the apparent pain. It seems evil, for the melancholy and the apathy to dwell and harbor within. It feels evil, but the latter of the two seeks to reconcile, in a dangerous way. Lord, will You just take over. 
In Christ's love, Judah

Every season and every story;
Your faithfulness reveals Your glory.
An unopened eye; "why!" the children pry.
A forgetful mind; yet You've come to find.

Judges 3: 7
"The Israelites did evil in the eyes of the Lord;
they forgot the Lord their God and served the Baals and the Asherahs."

35- oversight

Daddy,
The subject that I am intending to major in is so grey and dark, within this first 2 weeks of lessons, they are already telling us unfortunate phenomenon/reality that is happening in real time- that at a certain point in time, people realize that they are no longer this special individual but a part of a bigger group; that being realistic and practical often means forsaking dreams and releasing hope. 
I think I am afraid. The video today drove me to take down a lot of notes, but on a personal level, my engines have still yet to warm up. I do not want to be like the previous semester, or even the large part of the earlier life. The high-flyer story remains a myth and will probably cease to exist if it is not fulfilled. Past promises, complacency? Just a few years back I was looking at the likes of Yale university, but now I'm in NUS and struggling to do well. I don't think I have become dumber, but this fall only allowed me to assess myself better. It has not been my ability, but Your grace to had seen me flew so high for so long. But now I have come to You, why must that grace disappear? I once was that child whom people envy- no study is an A, study is an A+. Why has it all been taken? I know I haven't been hardworking at all, but I haven't changed a bit. Lord, help me to cut myself away from the glorious past. Those annual awards, those heights mean nothing today. I am drowning in this water. Lord, show me Your reason, and show me Your plan.
Ask and it will be given. So Lord, here I am to bow before You. I kept saying I have entered a season, but just as I have had one leg into this season, I have began to wavered. Lord, strengthen my faith to help me keep up with You. I am weak, but my Lord is strong, so Lord help my heart to yearn for You. Help me to be satisfied in You. And each time I cry out to You Lord, please hear me, and impress anything upon me hard.
Lord, I pray for revelation for novelty, for the embarkation of this new journey. I pray for our cell and pray for the works to be of Yours. I thank You for this opportunity to impact lives, but Lord, will You just speak and teach us. Teach us Your ways. Teach us Your purpose. Teach us Your plan. I hereby commit Joseph, Benjamin, Timothy, Keith, Ryan and Eleanor into Your hands. Lord, You will guard Your children, and may Your presence be upon them. That they will grow mightily strong in You, and keep their hearts that they will always cling to You in these lives. Lord, build all of us up and may we be mightily used by You to do Your works and may Your joy be with us now and forever.
Lord, I pray for myself. You see my struggle. You know all my pain and discomfort even before I present any of them before You. Lord, will You just keep me. What I need I do not know, but I call out to Your name, Lord Jesus. And I trust that You will take care of my needs and help me for You are the Provider and the Encourager. Lord, speak Lord. 
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

In Christ's love,

Judah

O Lord, it hurts; desperate call I could not understand.
The Holy feet stepped onto the dirt, a love we cannot comprehend.
Honks and vrooms, the charging crowd pushes humanity to an oversight of God toward a life that slogs away;
breeze and light, in the silences the grace of the Lord helps us to look beyond the apparent to set our eyes upon His way.

John 15: 19
"If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own.
As it is, you do not belong to the world,
but I have chosen you out of the world.
That is why the world hates you.

37- Remember

Each time a willful rebellion;

in denial I ran, with the scoffers I made an union.

Yet the faithful Father stands fast,

tears of compassion; heartful prayers that will last.

A call to remember;love story that resembles the snow of December.

love,

Judah

38- I am coming home

Daddy, 
How does it feel to be in those positions? When we are so close to You that we feel Your every presence; when we are so broken that You seem to be the only way out; when we stray so far off and suddenly realize that You have been hanging on nevertheless; when our sight and minds have been turned to You and only You? All these possibilities, Lord, will You just help me see. 
Today I was exposed to Your goodness- a firm conviction that whenever we pray there You will be to listen and answer our prayer. Today I was exposed to Your people, the suffering and struggle of the great many that I might have been oblivious too. Help me to recognize the familiarity, for You are the Lord, my God. May all emotions be of You and from You and might I be spurred toward a great much closer to You.
Today I wanna continue to give You thanks, that You hear the smallest prayer from us because You care. I thank You for clearing the sky when we want to jog; I thank You for being there to minister when the baggage and burden had seemed too much for us to take. Lord, I pray for You to work every so mightily. In Your name, I proclaim Your victory, for more than 2000 years ago, Your victory over death has already redeemed us. So in Your name I want to cast out to guilt and the iniquity in Timothy. I thank You for his heart, for the mess within is the beginning of a great work in You. So Lord, just as the God's chisel has depicted, I pray for You to mould him and heal him. Lord, Your hand is mighty and Your prowess unlimited. I pray for You to speak to Him and in Your name, I declare mercy. That You will help him in the walks in this life- help him to pick up this faith to follow You. 
Lord, I also want to continue to pray for my brothers and sisters. I give You thanks for Joseph, for bringing him back to You. Lord, may Your words be clear to his ears. Help him to hear and obey You and may You reveal Your plan for him and these many children of Yours.
Lord, I pray for Benjamin, Ryan, Eleanor, Calvin, Vanessa, Timothy and Keith. Each of them has a unique role to play in Your plan, and I declare Your goodness upon these many lives. May all of them have a Godly encounter with You. 
Finally Lord, I pray for You to continue to be so real so close to us in this lives. Help me call out to You, and help me to see Your pillar of cloud and fire, that wherever I may go, there Your presence will be with me. Lord, I continue to pray for the gift of tongues. May Your revelation blow me away, and keep me close to You, always!
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Give thanks with a grateful heart;
A distant hope, in You it will start.
Burgeoning excitement;
a joy amongst all sentiments.

Psalm 97: 11- 12
"Light shines on the righteous and joy on the upright in heart.
Rejoice in the Lord, you who are righteous, and praise His Holy name."

38- witness

Daddy,

I pray for inner peace. Thank You for this period, this season, this wonderful season You have laid ahead of us. The excitement is spreading, and Lord, I want to believe that tis sensation is of You and it from You. Lord, please continue to work through all these. Your works we have been entrusted with, Your guidance will see us through! I pray for Your leading, to motion me along and help me to keep up with the pace and the steps. I pray for Your peace, that it's decision is an assured one derived at Your mercy. I pray for a conducive environment, that wherever I am, I will always be able to look to You and pacify the inner mess. Help me to focus in following You, and help me to focus in studies.

Lord, You know all things. That even before I present my problems to You, You already know all the needs of the world. Lord, I pray for Your vision, to help me see. I pray for Your heart, that will help me feel. I pray for Your ears, that will help me hear. That each request I present before You, it will be according to Your likings and Your joy. 

I have my own struggles to doubt, and Lord I just want to keep faith. Help me not to push You out and strengthen my conviction in this faith. As I type this letter, Lord, I pray for You to work things out within me, that whichever part within me that is not of You, may You chisel them away.

Remove any pride and remove any abstinence, and help me submit to You. Your authority I will submit indeed, Lord. Turn me to Your words once again. As much as I would always love to give You thanks for all the discoveries I have made on hindsight, I pray for quick ears and eyes, to be responsive enough to notice Your might hands move. Lord, I pray for Godly encounter with You. My heart is weak, and my faith is small. Lord forgive every bit of me which doubt, and I pray for Your supplication.

The gift of tongue I so seek-after, Lord, I pray for You to give according to Your will. All these are of You and for Your works, so Lord I pray for Your equipping, That each gift from You will be acknowledged and mightily utilized for Your works. Let Your works be not only an encouragement to the rest, but to You as well. 

All these I will not see, unless You grant me the vision. I pray for You to help me see Lord, I pray for You to help me love too Lord.

I am struggling to pin down my pride and selfish recognition and selfish gain. Lord, I give them to You and will You just pin them down. I pray for a heart that is wholly after Yours, that each work I take on, it's by Your grace and mercy, that my motivation would be that of love- love from You, love You, love Your people. 

For Poiema Lord, I pray for each and every single one of them, that You will give and supply in every area that You have designed them to go. May Your mighty plans for them unfold in all glory and splendor that point towards Your goodness in this life! 

I pray for mighty revelation, and I want to sit at the foot of Your throne to hear You. Lord, speak Lord.

Lord, I pray for Zheng Feng. Thank You for the brief experience he had with You, and thank You for such an opportunity You have made available for a growth, just before enlistment. You know the kind of challenges, and You know the kind of impacts it would have on a young life. I pray for Holy intervention that You will show him what is right from wrong. and I pray for a transformation of heart. That in this curiosity he has for You, he will have an experience with You, and it will be transformed into a love and a hot pursuit for You. Lord, I commit this brother into Your hands and I also commit the development of this new friendship into Your mighty hands! 

In Jesus's name I pray,

Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Tugged into the couchy, adjusted into comfy;
left arm on the resty, right hand holding a drinky.
Curtains drawn, applause sound;
the play titled "Creation" came on air.
I wait in anticipation; eager for a fascination.
Wonderful promise excites me; unfolding purpose awesome it's to be.

1 Chronicles 28: 8
"So now I charge you in the sight of Israel and of the assembly of the Lord, and in the hearing of our God:
Be careful to follow all the commands of the Lord your God, that you may possess this good land and pass it on as an inheritance to your decedents forever."

39- burgeoning excitement

Daddy,
Perhaps it is just a bit of discomfort, but a lot more of a reminder. I thank You for the scar, that Your protection has not only protected me from harm, but also given me a mark, one that guards and hides me away from repeating the mistake. I want to be sure and certain and stay faithful to that conviction, that I am through with the past. 
Thank You for being there amongst us, Lord. For us to pray for one another, and for the leaders to pray for each of the Poiema members. I certainly feel very encouraged and ministered by the session, and I am not sure if I have heard correctly, but those sensing, I pray for them to become clearer each time I draw close to You. Let it not be my own imagination or mere sentiments, but really each image and each sound, let it be a vision of Yours or Your own voice speaking. Help us be sensitive to Your words, and help us to be responsive to them as well.
Lord, I want to pray for Ryan, Benjamin, Eleanor, Timothy and Keith. Each of these young lives, I give you thanks. All of them have come far in their own strive with You, and I just want to pray for You to work through them. Let Your glory shine through them and make them a people after Your heart.
Lord, I want to pray by name for Ryan. As these kids come under my wings Lord, help me to love them. As a shepherd is to a group of helpless sheep, I pray for You to work through me. Grant me the wisdom, and grant me discerning ears, that indeed I will be able to guide them onto the right path that runs after You! Lord I thank You for such maturity in Ryan, that You have endowed upon Him responsibility at such a tender age. Help him be a Timothy, young yet not fearful; anointed yet not boastful; tormented yet faithful. Lord, let him speak Your truth and draw him away from all evils. This is Your masterpiece, and I speak growth in Your name, that as he continues to spend more time with us, he will continue to grow in this faith, and be a blessing to his family.
Lord, I want to also pray for Benjamin. You know Your child, and he may not be the most expressive boy, but You know his heart- one that is tender and meek, one that reaches out to the young and the weak. Lord, I pray for You to raise him up. Raise his confidence level, and grant him favor in building relationships. Lord, I pray for You to mature his heart, and really just breathe Your words unto him. As he continues to seek You and look up to You, Lord, may You bless this boy in his walk with You, that he will be drawn closer to You than ever!
As for Eleanor, I thank You for this special lady, one whom blister with such huge potential. All good things on earth come from You, and as I lead her, Lord, I pray for You to guide her. Mould her heart and transform her into Your likeness! I pray for a revelation within, a transformation within, a realization within, that You will wrestle her away from the ways of the world, and may the gifts and the huge potential You have bestowed upon her be used as means to do Your great works! In Your name I want to bless Eleanor, that You will grant her favor amongst people. That in this new dynamics, You will help her to become more sensitive both spiritually and emotionally, and let her be a vessels to perform Your transformation. I pray for receptive hearts and open minds, that we will learn to love and look beyond what we see.
Lord, I also want to pray for Keith. Thank You for this mature boy. He has gone through much at a young age, and I thank You for the strength You have given him for You do not give beyond what we can take. So Lord, I pray for You to stir up a new revival, a new desire from within, that You will help him to see the need of meaningful fellowship. Help him to step up, and help him to recognize a special identity You have given him in Your name. Lord, I pray for Keith that he will continue to grow in You abundantly. I release this young boy into Your hands and trust that You will guide him along righteous path, and that in this new environment he will be Your mouthpiece to spread the Good News. Lord, You are the God of excellence, so I pray for You to continue to develop Keith.
Lord, I want to pray for Timothy. Thank You for this encouragement, that in times of doubt, his simple faith always point towards Your glory and Your goodness. Lord, I pray for Timothy that in this new dynamics, he will be able to hone and grow in his maturity level in You. As we dwell amongst the younger ones, let them be an encouragement to us as much as we are mentors to them. I pray for Timothy that You will talk to him and reveal Your unique plan for him. I commit him into Your holy hands, that You will guide him and guard him against all evil. Lord, I pray in Your name for Your wisdom and discernment to be upon him as he takes up more responsibilities in life to make decisions. Lord, I want to bless this brother with the gift of wisdom, that he truly will be revelation of Your words to the group.
Finally Lord, I want to pray for Joseph. Thank You for being such an important figure in his development, that even when he seems to be getting out of hands, Lord You always grant him the silent humility to learn and change. Lord, I pray for his cell and my cell in togetherness. Lord, I trust in Your plan and thank You for revealing to us much via Your children. Lord, I continue to pray for our cells, and cry out for Your revelation. Clear the dark patch and help us to see. Lord if anything is of You, give us the confidence that You will be there with us in all that we do. Let us not see as the world sees, but help us to pick up the spiritual spectacles to see through Your eyes. Lord, I release Joseph into Your Holy hands. Lord, humble him and hone him. Help him to love the unlovable, and help him to enjoy the peace in following You.
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

By name I commit them into Your hands;
trusting fully in Your Holy plans.
Pure sheep,
Yours to keep.
Actively we seek for Your purpose to unfold;
Gladly, in Your love and grace our lives are hold.

John 21: 15- 17
""When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?"
"Yes Lord," he said, "you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."
Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you love me?"
He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you."
Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep."
The third time He said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?"
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."Jesus said, "feed my sheep."

40 - licking wounds (a painful recovery)

Daddy, 
Let these moments not retain within the blog, or this particular time frame where I have been set aside for You. Lord, let this be a part of me, that each cry and each call I sound out to You, help me to really commit and not be satisfied with a "good prayer" or a feel-good obligation.
Here, I want to give You thanks for the growing ministry in Tanjong Pinang. The returning students are a sign, and I pray for You to continue to work in the hearts of many. Your seeds have been sowed way before us, and if we are reaping the harvest now, Lord, provide us with the means. I praise You for the joy and the satisfaction You have allowed us to indulge in You, so Lord I pray for You to continue to be the cause of all the good happenings. This redemption of lives is a noble work, one that is done in Your name, and in all that we do, let it bless Your holy name. Help us to work and develop and stay pure and obedient to Your calling. 
Lord, tonight I want to cry out to You. In all that I have seen, in all that I am continuing to see, will You just fill that hole. The wound dries and breaks, but the complete healing continues to be evasive. Lord, You see my heart, You feel my hurt. I acknowledge Your sign, but really just help me to leave this baggage at the cross. Help me to put down my burden and take on Your yoke, and lead me upon Your path. Help me to let go, and let God. It is difficult with all the overdoing (people can comment for all they want, but perhaps it is the quietest one who has been impacted the most) so Lord, turn my eyes away from those. 
Lord, for tomorrow's meeting, help me to focus on You and help me to be receptive to the progression. May You grant us wisdom and help us to have the vision- Your vision for the group.
Finally Lord, I pray for myself. I continue to struggle in many areas in life. I thank You for the lull period, and thank You for this rich season, but Lord, I continue to be discontented in You. I desire of You more and more, and I pray for Your gifts to be given freely, that I may draw closer to You, that other things will fade in comparison to Your goodness and wonder. 
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

A void you've left; the depart I have yet to accept.
Devoid I was left, the heart I wish it had slept.
Every places and every things,
trigger a feeling deep within.
Hurt heart;
good God.
let go, let God;
an offer I gladly gave nod.

Philippians 3: 8
"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord,
for whose sake I have lost all things.
I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ."

41- peace of mind

Daddy,
The first week has come to an end. Viewing things from outside the circle does indeed give us a better perspective of the entire issue. And as much as each time I thought "this can't be me", it somehow always turn out to be me. "Traveling Light" is speaking to me in a way that has been so evasive for a large part of the recent years. Lord, I do not want to depart, and through each of this, I only pray for You to draw me closer each time.
Today I just want to keep a dear friend of mine in prayer. Each man has his own weakness, and through You we find the strength. A day in the world may be a tough trudge through the marsh, but Lord, I trust in You. Just like how You have brought me out from where I was, I entrust Charlene into Your mighty hands. I wouldn't say I have undergone a complete transformation, but each hindsight just brings me a better testimony, a greater gratitude, a deeper amazement, a more adoring worship. I want to attribute these changes to Your works in my life, and I do not want to claim any of those credits, so Lord, I pray for Charlene, that You will remove all the hurts and pains from her. She has a lot of anger, and a lot of baggages, so Lord, I just want to pray for You to help her relieve. Help her to release these bags to You because You have promised to take them for us. She is Your child, and she wants to follow You. So Lord, I pray for an encounter with You for her. Help her to walk on Your path, and help her to see Your purpose. Turn her eyes away from injustice, and shut her eyes from all the unfairness, but really just impress upon her heart that You are enough. In the midst of all unfairness, in You we find our comfort. Help her to discover the optimism in following You.
Lord, indeed, help us to establish a Holy ground and help us to come to terms with the privilege that Christianity brings about in that that identity allows us to see You in the most common of bushes. Help us to experience Your presence and then acknowledge it, that even though thousand pairs of feet may have passed the same place ten thousands times, but we see You at that place, and that encounter demarcated it's Holiness, that like Joshua, we will take off our sandals and call it the Holy ground- all because of an ability to notice, thus an encounter with You Lord Almighty.
Lord, I also want to pray for the trip tomorrow. This ministry is Your ministry and let not Your servants be tired from it. I pray for Your joy to flow through the team, that positive working relationships will be established and maintained. Lord, I commit the results into Your hands and pray for Your revelation and plan for us. Lord, will You move in this ministry, and encourage us with all positivities. Lord, I continue to entrust this town of people, and pray for You to work mightily in this community.
Lord, I also want to pray for Faith. Thank You for such a wonderful lady, and thank You for keeping her close to You. She is a lady after Your heart, so Lord, I just want to pray for the celebration that we are going to have tomorrow evening, that You will be there amongst us. As she has hoped, Lord, I pray for openness and really enjoyment. That as we dwell in each others' presence, Your peace and love will flow. Let this be a positive platform for Your work. I bless the event in Your name, for all things work for the good of those who love You. Lord, may Your goodness continue to be shown through not only this event or testimony, but may it be a shining light in each of our lives.
Finally Lord, as Sunday draws near. I pray for Poiema. Impress upon the hearts of the leaders what You have for us. Help each of us to avail ourselves to serve You and make that the primary priority in our lives. Help us to see through Your eyes, and help us gain a Godly perspective. May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in Your sight, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer (Psalm 19:14). 
In Your Son's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

A message You have sent,
which value worths the children's cents.
In the grip of grace; a benevolent offer of a lighter yoke for the prodigal kid;
By my trip of lace, the malevolent scoffer confuses and rejects to push for an unnecessary hid.
John 3: 16 the lasting promise;
stands firm even beyond every demise.

Ephesians 4: 26
""In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry."

42- delay

Daddy,
This came at a delay. Thank You for ministering to me via a seemingly irrelevant book. I am still struggling to find the discipline to settle down to at least do some reading. I mean I love reading, but I just hate the environment- it never seems right except for when I'm on the train? I would appreciate if there's lesser people, and I don't feel uncomfortable sitting down while other people stand. It seems like a rant, but I do pray for a nice environment when I can really kickstart my resolution.
"Traveling Light" had seemed like an irrelevant book, at least at this point in time when I am more concerned about how to face the people in hall when I have seemingly deserted them during a crunch time, about how to set myself going when the term is passing me by quietly, and quicker than expected too, about how to sustain this difficult walk (supposedly easy). I know about burden, I have watched the Skitguys' play on baggages, I have even written one poem few days back about luggages. But once again, I think I have been proven wrong. Burdens do not only mean those things that seem like burden- sometimes small things- perhaps a little too much of stubbornness, a little too much of independence, a little too much of self-reliance. Things could have been a lot simpler if we follow the best way, the easy way, common way, God's way, but we always choose our ways- the unnecessary detour to demonstrate our self-sufficiency, the extra mile to showcase our capabilities. My fear of persecution and judgement was unnecessary, because those had no bearings on who I am. You look beyond and I thank You for that! 


I guess I have much difficulties putting all that I have gone through today into words, for sharing or for recording, but I just wanna give thanks. Dough McKnight had more blessings than requests in his prayer list despite being hit by multiple sclerosis in the early 30s, I pray for a similar contention, that I would just live out "what I have in my shepherd is greater than what I do not have in my life". It is a difficult conviction, a challenging one, but Lord be my strength. I pray for You to in my heart. 
Today I had my first challenge as a psychology student, hearing things that run in contrary to my belief, that mental illnesses are biological rather than spiritual. A grey area that may not even permit space for a non-mutually-exclusive. Lord, I pray for Your revelation, that You will take away all the ifs, and help me. Help me Lord, to see the truth. Help me to understand Your creations, and help me to know. I continue to seek You in this respect, and let not my faith be shaken, for my life belongs to You!
Lord, today I also want to pray my two sheep (Ryan and Benjamin). I have yet to be in touch with them, but Lord, I thank You for all the goodness and all the blessings You have poured out in their lives. Even more so, I thank You for granting them the excitement to come to Poiema. Hereby Lord, I just want to pray a blessing over them. In Your name, I pray for Your Godly wisdom to be upon them. Grant them the discernment that will bind them close to the Truth. I bless them in their pursuit of studies, that You will smoothen the path ahead of them. I pray for favor, that no matter where they go, they will encounter good people, Godly people who will serve to influence them to be more like You! Lord, I bless this relationship that will be established between me and them, between Daniel and them, between Daniel and me. In You, all things are strengthened, and indeed like what You have said about 2 is better than 1. Let Your glory and goodness thrive in these places.
Finally, Lord, I just want to pray for myself. Lord, let no things be a distraction or even just an excuse to be laid back. Lord, I do not know, but You do. So I just want to commit myself to You. In Your timing, and by Your timing, all things will fall into place, so yes Lord, will You just keep us. Help us, reveal to me my gifting, and I will receive in gratitude.
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Away I turned I hid my face in guilt;
an abandonment I have chosen, then I chose to be mute.
There is a season for everything the E-book declares,
Abiding in faith, my conviction blares.
A thousand reasons;
an apparent treason.
O Lord, help me, I cry a lonely man.
Your soothing comfort, reminded me of the plan.

1 Samuel 16: 7
"But the Lord said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him.
The Lord does not look at the things man looks at.
Man looks at the outward appearance,
but the Lord looks at the heart."

43- discipleship

Daddy,
The school term has started at its usual slow. Don't really know what to expect and whatever resolution I have made, I really pray hard that I will keep to them. Is 5 a realistic target? I gotta start working soon. A million other things seem so much more enjoyable to do, so Lord, I pray for You to help me focus. Help me to discover the motivation and help me to convert whatever energies I have into doing the things I should do, and keep me from procrastination. Lord, this is a new season I have stepped into. I was close with You, I was convinced, so let me not stray for You. I am a forgetful man, but Lord, You never forget. Hold me close to You and help me to look to You ever more.
Lord, I pray for Gabriel. Thesis seems like a tough things, and he's not having it good in any sense. You have blessed him with good results, and You have kept him close to You. So Lord, I pray for Your peace to be with him. Help him Lord, he's in much struggles. But Lord, I just want to pray for You to grant him Your joy. Take His eyes away from the worries, and be with Him. For all things work for the goodness of those who love You. I thank You for his heart to serve, so Lord, I pray for You to be with him always. 
Lord, I pray for myself too. It seems like a good season, one which I really like. On hindsight only then I realize the joy to be in sync with You. Lord, let me not forget this feeling. I am still feeling good, and things are still pretty much on track, but I pray for You to prepare me. Help me to find strength to go on this path strong, but even more so prepare my heart so that when it finally turns bitter, I will continue to have You with me. Each drop I leak away, Lord, I pray for You to top it up 10 times more. I yearn to serve You, and Lord, let this servitude not fade with time.
Indeed it is a joy to serve You. I thank You for all these opportunities. I pray for You to speak. I have not been earnest enough to hear, but Lord, I pray for a personal encounter with You. Each time I feel away from You, Lord, I pray for You to draw me closer a hundred times. I yearn for the gift of tongues, and as I continue to struggle to maintain a healthy prayer life, Lord, I pray for You to sustain me. Help me to build up this relationship with You in words. Help me to grow stronger in You, and help me to become a better person. Lord, chisel away whatever's not of You, and keep me in Your likeness.
Finally, Lord, I continue to pray for Poiema. My 2 sheep (Ryan and Benjamin), I pray for You to guide them. Develop them and mould them, so that as they grow, their eyes will always be fixed on You and they will grow to become Godly men after You. Lord, I pray for meaningful relationships to be built between us. Above all, I pray for Your guidance on this shepherding. Lord, only You know the plans You have for them, and I pray for Your revelation to unfold before me. 
I also want to pray for closer friends. Lord, I pray for Joel, Faith, Alvin, my sister, Charmaine, Linnette. Lord, these are Your children, and I thank You for each of them. As we all cross into a new year, draw them back to You and help them to live out Your plan more. Lord, I pray for personal encounter for each of them. They are wonderful people, and each has a role to play in Your plans. So Lord, I commit all of them into Your hands, guard them from the temptations of the world, and turn their eyes to You at all times. Whatever it may be, may Your will be done on earth as in heaven.
Lord, I also want to pray for Alicia. Lord, thank You for opportunities and Your arrangement for her to be amongst us. I pray that You will use her mightily. The current job may be tough, but Lord, You are the God of all things. You are the God of provision. So I pray for Your sustenance to be upon her. Lead her as she lives out her life, guide her as she follows You.
Lord, I also want to pray for Tanjong Penang. Thank You for the desires to make changes. Lord, I pray for Your hands to continue to move amongst Your work. May You guide us to where You have designed for us to proceed in. Lord, You know best, and if anything is to come into fruition, it will be of Your will. Lord, I pray for Aunty Steph and Aunty Elisha. These are the people with a burden for the locals, so I pray for You to work through them. Grant them Godly wisdom and discernment as they make the necessary decisions. Lord, I put my faith in You.
Finally Lord, I pray for my hall, and the school's ministry in general. Serving You should not be tiring and we should definitely not burn out from serving You for Your yoke is lighter than ours. So Lord, I pray for You to move amongst the leaders. I pray for a revival, a replenishment. Refresh Your servants, so that they will not be too task-oriented. Lord, fill all of them up, and may Your presence move more mightily than ever in this place. 
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Sacks, luggages, purses and bags;
with the flow of the world the boy tags.
An exchange between dusk and dawn;
the endless pursuit he has gotten on.
Daddy, Daddy he needs Your guidance; a joy in You he knew he'd gain.
Relief in the silence; an offer he could only amen.

Matthew 11: 28-30
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

46- one step at a time

Daddy,
I don't know the perfect start, but if breaking me is necessary, remove the unrealistic confidence I have in myself. It can be arrogant, but more so, damaging- to push me into delusion. 
Beginning of school, meeting up with old friends, going out with some very likable friends... I thank God for working in my life. It's an amazing circle, and an amazing many number of people drafted into the plan. 
Lord, MOGLOM. I pray for You to help me have lesser of me, and more of You! It's not easy, but in You it will be done. 
As the weekend draws nearer, and the planner becomes more and more packed, Lord, I pray for You to guide. Help me menage my time properly, and help me set aside time for You and for myself to rest and recuperate. Lord, help me not overcommit. Grant me wisdom to prioritize. 
Finally Lord, I pray for that list of people. Grant the leaders burden to help us see Your plan for them. Move in our midst, and make us a people sensitive to Your voice. Help us to see, guide us in our planning, and stand in the midst of all these relationships that we will be forging.
Lord, I continue to pray for the gift of tongues. 
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

47- Getting poised

Daddy, 
Somehow things always seem so much clearer from hindsight. A blind conviction led me to finish 40 over chapters from the book of Job without really knowing much what to expect, and today it came back strongly, convincing of Your great purpose and goodness in our lives. 
Today I made a case- there is a season for everything. It's good to be doing works in Your name, and there are so many works to be done. It is particularly pleasing to see the hearts for You, a burden You have placed upon many to reach out to the lost ones. But today, I took up a tough decision. I thank God for people whom understand, really. If I want to set up a cell in NUS, these 3 will definitely be in it. Now I understand why Bryan was hesitant against joining one of such kind, because of a potential rift, more accurately put, a misfit of focuses. Thank You for helping me to decide, and I pray for You to continue to be with me as I make more decisions in the coming days. Lord, may what I do be pleasing in Your side.
Lord, today is the release of O'levels results, and I pray for You to minister to the hearts of these kids. Lord, I give You thanks for the past many years that You have given opportunities to Singaporean kids to receive good education. It is by Your grace and by Your mercy that we are able to enjoy such privilege, so I don't want to take it for granted. May You continue to reign and may Your name be glorified in this nation as more people come to know You.
Lord, I just want to continue to pray for Ryan and Benjamin. The beginning of a new chapter in life, may their life-stories hinge on the fact that You are the centre, the Lord and Savior of their lives. Develop them and continue to impress upon their hearts Your marvelous plans.
Lord, finally, I want to pray for myself. As I brace myself for a new season, may Your presence continue to be felt. Help me to always look to You, and guard my vision, so that I will neither turn to the right or to the left, but always have my sight fix on You. Lord, help me look to You in all that I do, and help me to walk closer with You. I pray for the gift of tongues, that as I desire to speak to You more. Lord, bless this relationship I have with You and may Your joy pour out from within, as I continue to dwell in Your Spirit.
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Calmly I stand in brace;
gladly, we receive Your grace.
A voice in the silence I hear my Father speak (1 Kings 19: 12),
In obedience I respond, a vow I will not break (Isaiah 6: 8)

Ecclesiastes 3: 1
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven."

48- reality check

Daddy,
Why is it so difficult to sustain a relationship? It's been said that it's about love, some even said it's about agape love. But I am just a human, a not so strong one even. I thank You for that one, and sometimes become a little fearful of an over-reliance, so I yearn for more. But it's so tough to establish any kind of trust near that level, and it pricks rather painfully when it's not reciprocated. Perhaps it's the impression that I gave? I have already departed from the past, and I only yearn for deeper relationships, as friends... One that resembles that one- which foundation hinges beyond time spent together or what not, which centers on Christ and church. Daddy, ask and it will be given, so I pray that You will help me to be genuine and help me to be a good enough friend to my peers. It should all began from self, so I pray for You to reveal to me areas which I can improve in, and I commit that part of myself to You. Mould me into Your likeness, and make me a good friend in Christ. 
Today, I witnessed the transiting of my P6 boys up to Poiema. It was a weird moment, one with a lot of anticipation. An exciting prospect awaits, and I just want to echo the prayer. Daddy, as I take up the responsibility to mentor them (Ryan and Benjamin), I pray for You to lead me and guide me in all that I do, that they will be able to see You through me. I pray for a personal encounter with You for each of them, that Your hand will be behind every development they undergo. Touch their lives, and draw them close to You. Grow them up to become Godly young men who walk after You.
As another season begins, Daddy, I pray for Your healing touch and strength to be upon all who are tired. I thank You for the reducing number of names on the sick list, so I pray for Your anointing to be upon this year of 2012. I continue to be convinced that 2012 will be an exciting year for Your work, and I walk in full anticipation for Your revelation. Daddy, help me keep faith, and I continue to ask for the gift of tongues. 
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

A common path we took our strides;
Sticking with one another through life's tides.
A sturdy shoulder,
My faithful brother.
This friendship in Christ I give thanks,
Immeasurable by time, values beyond franc's.

Proverbs 17:17
"A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity."

49- Picking up pace

Daddy, 
What is to come, what comes, what has come? I think it has been a wonderful get-together for the family, and it is definitely a shame that we could only have it once a year (along that line). Ample time can appear to be very fearsome. And that is perhaps why I have been looking forward to each day's activities as the previous one conclude. 
I think I know why I feel so lousy. The fact that I have been unable to stick to a cause till the end of the commitment makes me question myself of my character, my attitude. It seems irresponsible, and no matter how I justify myself, the feelings suck! Yet, I have not come to please men, but for Your purpose alone I ought to live. So Lord, please help me with such cause. Protect me and guard me against such thoughts.
Lapses in concentration and guild, plus lack of followups, prompted and pushed for more space. I feel a little off-paced, but I want to continue to commit. As the unfamiliarity of a new year finally kicks in, Lord, keep me to the original cause. Help me to retain that excitement, that 2012 will indeed be a special year. 
Help me to continue to commit, and I wanna pray for te gift of tongues still. Help me pray as I seek to build up and sustain my prayer life. 
For the kids in a new environment, Lord, be with them and help them to settle. The first week must have been fun and exciting, and I just want to pray that You will continue to touch their hearts. Help them to look to You and reveal Your purpose for their lives. Daven, Ryan, Benjamin, Jana, Jolyn. Stir up the passion for You!
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

The journey ahead looks bleak;
a halt I crave, in You I found my break.
What will and is and has been,
Your will, can't miss, beyond my sin.

Hebrews 2: 18
"Because He Himself suffered when He was tempted,
He is able to help those who are being tempted."

51- Settling down

Daddy,
3 days, 3 people. Not sure if it had been planned that way, but it had happened that way, and I am genuinely grateful for each of them. No matter how much of those 3 meals remain, I think I have been ministered in one way or the other- whether it's feedback, discussion or pure sharing. 
A personal relationship indeed. Some words came out from my own mouth, but I have no prior thoughts about them. Perhaps like what YP had mentioned before, some people (myself included) need to talk it out and hear the answers from their own mouth. I am really that kind of person. 
2012 is an exciting and interesting year, and the hangover from the cross-over adrenaline is beginning to subside. Sooner than we know, things will get swung into actions again, and it will be all crazy! I pray for Your interference, that no matter how busy we may become, You will stay relevant and remain significant in our lives. Let not our own business block You away from our sight. 
A personal relationship You have yearned, and I guess all these withdrawals are pointing towards it. Lord, if a personal relationship is what You desire of me in the year of 2012, I pray for You to help me work towards that. Seasonal celibacy should take my mind off distractions, my doubts and my not-knowing will not divert my attention from You. If You want to speak, help me hear, Lord. 
I just want to continue praying for Benjamin and Ryan. As they enter the new school environment, Lord, be with them. Reveal Yourself to them and help them to see You in all the circumstances. I pray for favor amongst the people, and favor from You that You will help them to settle. Grow them, and mould them into Your likeness. Lord, into Your hands, I commit these 2 young lives. 
Lord, I continue to pray for Poiema. As we prepare our hearts for all the planning and transitions that are coming up, Lord, will You just guide us. Impress upon our hearts what You have for us. Teach us and guide us. If You want us to speak, let us speak. All things be done on earth as in Heaven. Lord, this is Your ministry. No matter who runs it, who's in it, may You tune all our hearts to You. Let it be done with servitude, help us to acknowledge Your presence, and guide us along Your ways.
Lord, I also want to commit the leadership into Your hands. Thank You for helping these people to avail themselves to You. May Your voice be heard, and help them to discern. For joy entails Your works, so I pray for You to continue to fit them into Your placement, that all things will work for the goodness of those who loves You! 
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Skyward call; my faith stands tall.
Day and night, my heart yearns for the One whom Nature declares glory;
May and might, Thy art turns the eyes of the world towards the 66 letters of love story.

Psalm 8: 3-4
"When I consider Your heavens, the works of Your fingers,
the moon and the stars, which You have set in place,
What is mankind
that You are mindful of them,
human beings
that You care for them."

53- cultivation

Daddy,
You told me to wait. It's a growing season. It has not turned out the way I have pictured it to be like, and as much as I have heard, I pray for Your revelation. Whether I am taking over the boys or anyone else, Lord, I commit the future into Your hands. Lord, lead and guide us and reveal to us what You have for us. If I am not called into this, tell me who is; let me know then where I should go. Lord, You have a perfectly crafted plan, so I pray for revelation. Help me to see a little of it, and I can only have praise for Your meticulousness. 
Lord, indeed it is exciting, and I thank You for clearing the doubts that I always had. Help me to sustain the excitement, and yes Lord, please speak. I continue to pray the same prayer, and ask for Your supplication. Whatever the reason for the delay, I continue to ask for the gift of tongues. Lord, as I seek to build up my prayer life of words, only You know when I am ready. So I commit myself into Your hands.
At the same time Lord, I pray for Ryan and Benjamin. These are two sprouting lives, all poised to receive what You have for them. Lord, keep them and guard them. As they begin to integrate, Lord, I pray for Your interference. Guide them on Your ways, and keep them close to You. I pray for You to work mightily in their lives, that as the new school term begins, Lord, You will be there with them to help them. May Your peace go with them and Your touch comfort them. 
Also, I want to pray for 2012. Regardless of where the the world stands today, Lord, I want to focus on Your works. Transitions and challenges, Lord, I want to commit the church into Your hands. As people step up, I pray for Your hands to move mightily in the various ministries. Guide us, and teach us Your ways. Evan said it is a season of resolution. Lord, please speak and teach us to focus on Your purpose. Show us what You have for us in this year. I pray for relationships between the two congregations. May Your forgiveness flow through us, and help us to reunite for the greatness of Your good. Though we are many, we are one body, because we all share in one bread (Jesus Christ). 
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Lives You entrust;
Love them we must.
By Your strength we do our part;
Raised ears, opened eyes and a willing heart.
Agape love from the One;
On hindsight, a marvel is done.
Keep us therefore on this narrow path;
A journey with You the children hath.

Isaiah 30: 21
"Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying,
'This is the way; walk in it.'"

55- Blessed New Year

Daddy,
Blessed new year. Though I can't really comprehend how life on Your side is being calibrated, I wish You a blessed new year in earth's term, just as how we would alway sing "Blessed be Your Name". 
Frequent listening had once tired my ears; and now frequent talking has numbed my mouth. Perhaps I really just want to keep it short and sweet- or perhaps I really need a break, even though I have always said that I am having it right now. 
2012 is a new beginning, and unlike previous years, I really do have the conviction that 2012 is going to be a very exciting year. It seems to hold a lot of promises- promises to breakthrough, promises to grow, promises to gain a foothold, promises to establish. Lord, please continue to reveal Your plan to help us with our pursuits. Some time back, "pursuit" was changed to "seek", so Lord, I pray for a revelation. Reveal Your purpose to us so that we can pursue it.
Lord, as things become flatter and more obvious, please help me to prioritize. Help me to focus on the things You want me to focus on, and if it means a bit of sacrifice, Lord, so be it. If relationships require urgent mending, turn my head towards it, if a void requires urgent filling, divert my attention to it. Lord, whatever it is, may Your plan be fulfilled on earth as it is in Heaven. 
Today, I want to continue with my prayer. Lord, if it is Your purpose to will me into this position, Lord, help me. Grant me the gifts to help me in this ministry, help me to fulfill that responsibility and Lord, work through me so that these young lives will undergo the proper and good development. If I am not the one, Lord, I pray for Your guidance. I pray for Your revelation or the right candidate. In Jesus's name I pray, Amen!

Your child,

Judah

A stride into the new year;
Shattered pride, reduced fear.
In You I trust,
Follow You I must!

Psalm 130: 5
"I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I put my hope."