Little episodes that encouraged

I've always had the presumption that when God speaks, it has to be acknowledgeable. There was a short stint where I tried to convince myself that hearing God is so difficult, it's way easier to just attribute than to just look for it. Even for a young Christian like myself, the whole doctrine about God speaking through many means had already sunken in by then- that God speaks through the still small voice to Elijah, that God speaks through more than just words, that God can speak through people, speak through actions, speak through circumstances, speak through His Word (the bible) etc. A thousand and one possibilities and suggestions. 

But that one that I sought, continued to be elusive. From everything I could lend my hands on- from older Christians to published Christian books- rather than to explain why the selected groups of people whom seemed to have been given the privilege to hear His voice, literally, many sought to encourage by suggesting the otherwise- all the other possibilities all over again. Schmitz's "Can You Talk Louder God" and Max Lucado's "When God Whispers Your Name" offer me little comfort, albeit both being great books to discuss about improving our relationship with God.

I yearn to hear His audible voice, and even today my ears continue to be sticking out to capture any that might flit by. Yet, at this point in time, the relationship had improved in leaps and bounds. It is no less when instead of hearing, we began seeing. And it all points back to realigning the relationship. This is a deep relationship that goes to the most fundamental- in a relationship, there are 2 parties, and each got to know their role in it. This understanding is crucial, but so often lacks the emphasis it deserves. In our relationship with Daddy, we are the children. By knowing that we are the children, we are assured of our Father's love for us. Matthew 7:11 says "If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!" In the same passage in Luke 11:13, the good gifts were referred to as the Holy Spirit (NIV). This son-ship/ daughter-ship identifies us who believe in Him.

That brings us to the next revelation, that our Daddy is a King (1 Timothy 6:15). So as the King's children, that make us all Princes and Princesses in His Kingdom. This is what I like most in a recent read by Kris Vallotton called "The Supernatural Ways of Royalty". By knowing that we are His children is a great deal. It gives us courage (because our Daddy is powerful and reliable), it gives us security (because our Daddy is rich and has abundant for us), it gives us confidence (because we will inherit the riches of His Kingdom), it gives us empowerment (because His blood flows in us: we are made in His likeness/image (Genesis 1:27)), it delights us (because He loves us (John 3:16) and He gives us good gifts (Matthew 7:11) and He does not disappoint us (Romans 5:5), and the list goes on. By that, we can be assured that Daddy seeks to talk to us, and He selects and picks the best timing (Jeremiah 29:11) for His plan to unfold, and that includes how and when He speaks to us. 

In the recent days, I've had some pretty cool insights and encounter upon discovering my identity. 30 May 2012, I joined my 2 friends on a prayer walk and that was the first time the word of knowledge came upon me. Does it compare to hearing His audible voice, I reckon so. And when it comes, I ought to be able to live my spiritual life in a physical body already instead of living a physical life with a spirit. This word of knowledge had bypassed my conscience, and I probably would not even have realized if not for affirmation. There's a man who is going for an operation (and that information probably came at about late afternoon, 4/5-ish), I asked about the leg (that came at about 7), and the friend told me she had not told me anything about the leg. How had I known about it? I really don't know, and the 2 possibilities were that I got myself confused because I drew relations to another lady whom I've prayed for just a week before who really had a leg condition, or that God gave me that knowledge. Of course I would have wanted it to be the latter, but I was skeptical and I told Him, "if that knowledge is from You, reveal more of it to me, in a way that I can only attribute it to You, not confusion, not coincidence, but solely You." And then L called, and while talking to her, I somehow knew it's the knee. She had purposefully withheld the information from me, but the knowledge just came. I somehow just knew. So I asked for more details so that I could pray for him before the 30 May, but she told me to ask Him. It was a long drawn night, and I tried so hard, but nothing sinks in. On 30 May, while I was on my way to Chinatown, I was almost convinced that I'll just make a guess. In me, I was just so certain that it must have been the right knee. I mean by sheer logic, the right knee is so much more likely to suffer from strain and tear, but that knowledge refused to come. While at that, I had a massive ache in my left neck area, which I didn't pay much attention to. So off we headed to the Chinatown area, and had a fruitful time ministering to about 5 oldies. While on the way to meet that man, I sought affirmation (L knew exactly the condition) but she told me to ask him myself. When I met him, I did. It's the left knee area, and it was correct. Logic failed me, and ignorance bogged me, but the knowledge came. It's not even a guess because there was no need or intention for that at all. Has God spoken to me? I would say yes, though not the audible one that I had craved for. But this new confidence found in knowing my identity in Christ, and my relationship with God suggest that it's not really that important after all.

Today, that same sentiment applies- that it is easier to acknowledge than to seek His voice- but it is with a different attitude and mentality. Not one of helplessness like before, but one of gratitude. In this relationship, He gives good gifts, and He is the good Initiator. Our roles in it- to receive and thank Him. It is an active relationship on our side, and He listens keenly to our proposals and requests, but He sieves out the best for us in His all-knowing capacity. It is not work but grace through which the relationship blossoms, and that alone inspires plenty of gratitude (Ephesians 2:8).

Thank You indeed!

Your child, Prince Judah <3

Your grace poured out, flattens the little boy's pout.
Jubilee invades the shades of grey;
Light penetrates, and hopes restored this day.
Thank You Lord for all that I've been;
I pray O Lord that there'll be so much more to be seen!

2 Samuel 6:14
"David, wearing a linen ephod, danced before the Lord with all his might."

MOGLOM- my 21st blessing

I've uploaded a book which I've written as a form of 21st birthday blessing. Interested parties are welcomed to leave a comment to get the access code. The link to it is as follows: http://www.4shared.com/office/6a9epZpE/More_Of_God_Less_Of_Me__not_to.html

Author: Judah

Illustrator: Chan De Qi

Imageries taken from various websites

Hands at work

And so we were taught, and thus I prayed! 

Remember the Aunty whom corn prayed for 2 weeks back? I was having lunch with R and she came again, so I said hi and asked if she remembers me. Then we talked a bit. Apparently she was fearful of the boss of S as she probably had some bad experience being chased by them, so I bought tissue from her. And she left. But she knew we are from church. While we were eating halfway, she came back again and asked us which church we are from. So I bought more tissue from her and talked to her. And asked her if there's anything we can pray for her and she said she might have to go for an operation in her left ankle. She said the doctor told her there's a lump inside and she hopes it's not cancerous so I asked again if I could pray for her. So she brought us to the shop beside spize and I got her to sit down. And she took off her sandals and told me where the hurt is so I held on to it. And prayed for her, in a mix of Chinese and English. And after that I asked her how she felt. She said not so pain anymore. So I told her when she goes for her check up on the 6 August and they confirm that there's nothing wrong with her leg, remember that God is the One who healed her. And she kept asking which church I'm from so I told her it's the school on top of the hill. Anglican high school all saints. So she asked for my name and Ryan's name. And I just got led to challenge her. That if she's cleared, she could perhaps go to the church to testify! After a while, the husband came by to sell tissue, and I recognized him. So I talked to him a bit and decided to buy more tissue from him. And told him about the prayer and blessed him. When we were leaving for R's house, R spotted them at the corner near 7-11 and we went up to them. They were so thankful and the lady just kept telling me Gan Xie Zhu, meaning thank Lord! :)

At GDOP, L's iphone malfunctioned, so I laid hand on it with her and prayed over it and it got repaired! But after a while, it died again. This time round, 4 guys laid hands and prayed for complete repairing, and at the end of GDOP, it functioned again!

There's a dream that I got slain and I'm just looking forward! I need that personal touch! 

But God is awesome and wonderful and I'm just seeing and experiencing so much! My prayer for this season is a single word- More!

Amen!

Dream

Last night I had a dream! 

I was at a supermarket with my mom, sis and we saw an ex but she didn't recognize me.

Then we went on to buy some on sales items that were sold at 3 for 95 dollars and all of them were expensive items. Saw the pair of shoes that I own, but I never picked. Mom picked a pair of running shoes while Sister wanted to get something from the higher shelves but I refused to help her. 

Then all of a sudden I realized I was going to be late and I got annoyed that they were taking so long, so I ran off.

When I was running across the road, I saw a family of many. Husband and wives and many kids. It was dangerous and one of the kids got left behind while the rest crossed the road. I stopped running and made sure that he crossed the road safely before I left them. Then I reached a steep slope which I jumped over. And the family got stuck. So I turned around and helped to lower the kids. Got 2 of then in my arms pretty much like how I carry the kids in Tanjong Pinang. After that I told them I was running late and started running off again. At that, I was no longer angry but was filled with joy. 

And the dream kinda ended there:)

Interpretation: 

In explicit sense, it was reflected in the fact that I was literally almost late for lesson this morning as I left house 15 minutes late (having dozed off after snoozing the alarm). At this, I thank God for favor and grace when all the buses and trains seem to have been prearranged for me! 

I would have forgotten the dream. In fact, it had not occur to me that I have had a dream if not for the book. Today's bible passage was Daniel 2. My fond exploration of Ezekiel has finally ended, with myself so often lost and going through the motion, but is a revelation in itself. Daniel 2 talks about dream interpretation and as I was reading through the chapter, memories of last night's dream came into mind. Determined to not be disrupted, I resisted it, only for it to overflow as I read the last word. I was able to recollect in explicit details and as I note down the "story" interpretation came from a knowledge that stemmed from within what it all meant. Almost like a lecture with an overwhelming amount of information, my fingers flitted to get what was coming through down in my iPhone. 

The dream is about my life. My ex, the things life has to offer. No matter how good they are, they are not for me and I will realize it eventually. And I will run to make it to the Kingdom of God. Even then, I'll still struggle with grudges and things which I have difficulty letting go. But as I run, I will discover the grace of God and make a lot of cool discoveries like new routes to take, new turns to make. And I will have a heart for people. And in my bid to rush to make it on time, and as I strived to get closer to Him, He brings opportunities to my life, where I'll minister to people. To make sure they walk safely on the path that I've taken, and at dangerous junctions, I'll keep an eye on them and bring them across. Then I'll leave them (it's short term) and God will bring many more opportunities. And I'll continue to help them and talk to them even. And then they will hear, but yet the relationship built is not with me, but with the character that points to Him and they will be thankful and know Him. And then I'll carry on running. With no end in sight, but a joyful heart that He gives. 

Additional interpretations from treasured friends (J and L)

God has raised you to be a man of the household, and He has shown you that your sister needs you. To build her up in her walk with God. That she can start running on her own like how your mom can pick a running shoes already. He gave me a heart for His people but also showed me a person who needed help!


My dad, I ought to resolve conflict and bring him in.

Last night I was praying for quite a lot of things and I entered this half asleep state but unlike normal, I woke up numerous times to continue praying. And I prayed for Him to speak to me!!
Some days back YP talked to me and gathered that throughout my life, 2 things prevailed- that is I am a people people and I'm determined. So it all ties in nicely together. 

Capping off with the current book that I'm doing- the book of Daniel- the interpretation of dreams, it feels so uplifting. And I've never received a dream that I remember this vividly before!

Yesterday I got a dream for my friend who was feeling exasperated from some issue, and it served to assure her and my prayer for her tallied with what she received from God the previous night. So yes!!! God is speaking!

Coolios!!

Your child is excited, Daddy! <3

Kingdom Invasion!

Daddy,
I heard how You answered a prayer that sought to feel how You feel, and Your pouring out went beyond human comprehension. Each witnessing of a sad scene tugged upon the heartstrings and triggered the flowing of tears, but on Your side, it must have been so much more. I thank You for this season of drawing near- the feeling of being in Your presence so often. 
This is a season about Your Kingdom. It goes beyond a personal calling, but a church vision. Kingdom invasion is a cool concept, and today as the sermon was preached, it came again. Bringing Your Kingdom with us, bringing Your Kingdom to places we go, Your Kingdom is here with us. All in all, it stems from a central concept of the right understanding of the Kingdom- where You are, there Your Kingdom will too be; where You reign and rule, Your Kingdom is. 
As I received the prophecies and as I prophesied over some, I feel a burgeoning relationship. You are working, and things are moving. And I stand in eager anticipation for many breakthroughs! I am a prince in the Kingdom, and I have a rich inheritance prepared for me! 
And perhaps because of such intense exposure, it felt like a push! The load on the heart- a burden- is calling me to act! So Lord, I pray for You to guide me on how to act. I thank You for the exciting phases that are coming in succession! And I look forward to greater things that I will see, so Lord, as You drafted me into Your plan to be an active participant in the ushering of Your Kingdom, I pray for You to grant me the wisdom and the discernment. Keep me close to You and help me in my walk with You! Prayers keep us on our knees so that we will never be complacent, so Lord, I pray for a dynamic prayer life. Allow me to have a vastly close relationship with You, that prayer shall never be a chore. Help me to look to You and improve my senses that I'll recognize every sign of Your presence in my life. Help me to hear You!
Lord Jesus, Your Kingdom come on earth as it is in Heaven! Not my will but Your be done! 
I pray also for the bracing of the church, as the big transformation comes! I pray for receptive hearts, and a Godly perspective, that indeed we'll see through Your eyes! I pray for revelation and wisdom amongst the leaders that You'll continue to guide them and make them into good stewards and stewardesses of Your possession! May we be lifted up and brought to a whole new level of intimacy and communion with You!
Christianity cannot be a boring faith! So as Your Kingdom invades earth, I avail myself, and pray for the heart of Elisha, to possess that kind of desire to see and then to inherit Your prowess that had been promised to us! 
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Prince Judah<3

In its vastness the Kingdom unfolds;
an invasion of peace,
the lavishing of gifts.
Your Kingdom comes, Your will be done on earth as in heaven;
Praises we hum, Your people in one proclaim Your glory all weeks in seven.

Luke 17:21
"the Kingdom of God is within you." 

Knowledge is Power?

Einstein once famously said that "the more we know, the more that we know that we don't actually know." That fits aptly for the discovery and expounding of knowledge; and just as suitably it illustrates my walk in the Word. 


For the first time in 4 years, I have consciously finished reading the NT, and back to OT, very much to my own dismay, I discovered numerous forgotten/overlooked books. For one, the book of Ezekiel is one (before now) which I had a visitation record of nil. Together with it were some other recounts from the minor prophets. For a long period, I was satisfied with getting inspirational verses via verse-of-the-day sites, or supplementary readings. To put it, I was pretty much a Christian who never quite read the Word. 
But as a new season began, the fire got reignited, and the kind of consistency for the past 6 months had been unprecedented. Each day is a new day, a better day, a thankful day, and each day, a step closer to Home. I'm amazed at the distance I've covered, and looking up, I realize He had travelled much further to come to meet me.
Yet, the burden came in different volumes. Today's revelation came as a blow. "Kaboom!" It's a recognition of a common flaw, yet so common that it always gets overlooked, or even normalized. For the longest possible period that I remember, the 'power of prayer' is a notion which I have taken for a matter-of-fact- no analysis, no thoughts, even no sentiments. But in this new season; at this new level, the seismic shift forced me to look again. That knowledge hasn't quite been translated into behavior- powerful prayer, powerful it may be, had never quite been as powerful as it could have been. It has everything to do with the conviction (littered with a nonsensical enmeshment of convenience, laziness, ill-discipline etc.), and then the Right heart. 
Tonight I had a prayer session with my sister and we did some sharing. An authority given, and taken with discretion- I am accountable for my family! That prayer- the lost, the lukewarm, the stranded, the neglected. An active participant in God's plan means the acknowledgement of the power of prayer in practice. God bless K and R! 


Fellow Prince of the Kingdom,
Judah

Oh it's just you...

Disclaimer: Please do not read on if demons/ghosts stuffs are beyond you. Do not let fear gain a foothold in your lives, so if you know you're gonna be fearful, stop here. May the peace of the Lord be with you, and in Jesus's Name, I break away the bondage of fear upon your life!


Kris Vallotton shared in his book "the Supernatural Ways of Royalty" one of those experiences that had entailed his exciting Christian life. It was a confrontation/encountering with another being. Once, a Satanist-converted Christian came to stay over in his residence, and things went crazy for a while. Death threats from the satanists, demons, nightmares, lives were a chaos! And amongst them, a large demon with bright red glowing eyes visited him at night, and it would "scare the heck out of him" as how he had recounted. It happened ever so often, and his entire family was so troubled until one day, he received a revelation: "You only have power over the storm you have peace in." After he received the revelation, he went back, it came again, he was still scared, but as he looked up from his covers, he looked at it and said, "Oh it's just you!" And he went back to sleep. The being never came back again!


Fear that is not from God (only the fear of God is from Him) is anything but all right in our lives (the same applies for doubt, guilt and worries). Fear gives the evil one a foothold in our lives to deceive us into lending him the authority our God has given us; on the other hand, confidence in God (not pride) means a knowledge and an awareness of our identity as the children of God (His princes and princesses), and the authority that has been given us is huge (read it up!). 


Last night I had a visitation too. There were no big eyes, nor was there any other physical form. In fact, I didn't see it. But as I woke up from a nap, my right arm got twisted behind my back, and I was held in a very awkward position for a while. Think I was too tired to realize the situation, but as I used my authority and commanded it to leave in Jesus's name, it left and then I was all right soon after. J said that spiritual warfare needs prayer support; praying against strongholds of idols needs prayer support, and I thank God for wonderful brothers and sisters in Christ who lent their support!


Just wanna encourage all, that indeed we only have power over the storm that we have peace in. Draw near to Him in the relationship and enjoy the peace that comes from only Him!