Intensely nostalgic. Recall a day when you feel like a terrible misfit all the time, and your heart is constantly in any place except where you are, or when you actively search out for any space in the day to squeeze in a small escapade in the form of a small prayer or the humming of a tune or even just reminiscing of a beauty of the past. 

I've been plagued, deeply plagued. By a disease that stirs my soul to do something real (and meaningful)~