If anywhere, if anytime, if anyone; what is better than here, now, me?
It feels like a revival- not the typical outburst of manifestation, but a gradual brewing of excitement. I had a small burgeoning one leading up to my 21st just a little less than half a year back, and now it's back again stronger. This season had been littered with so much, and the fact that there was no specific occasion/cause for this made it anchor so much more deeply in Christ.
It's a season of reflecting (not even learning) identity. To quote Aunty S, there were times when I just had some old things that I had to unlearn, and other times where I had to relearn.
It could not have been easy, but each revelation was a step closer, a level higher, and the voice clearer. So it was really good. That book "Supernatural Ways of Royalty" spoke even more volume into my life, and then I realize what this is- a period of preparing me and molding me to the fulfillment of my calling. That message, those many prophecies which I had noted down in the various memory closets- they had seemed like distant calls beyond grasp, yet now when things slowly unfold distant does indeed seem more like an overstatement in light of eternity. The PREPARATION has begun!
I am beginning to claim my authority in Christ, my confidence in Christ, my security in Christ. These are all common terms, but when they fall on you, it's AMAZING! Imagine the courage to walk on water, going down the streets to bless strangers and so many crazy things that require no justification or rationalization except the crazy passion for God! If it means only eternal life secured, then how can a Christian life be fun like this? In contrast, if we become an active participant, and if we take on the mind, heart and soul of Christ, the transformation would have meant an innate inspiration/motivation to do what He would do- that is to pray, to heal, to bless, to minister... (and the list goes on). These are all good things, and I just thank God for the confidence I have adopted/rediscovered. Almost 2 years back, my confidence was shattered, and there were so much difficulty putting together the broken pieces, but today, just today as I write this post, I think I am made whole again! God is so awesomely wonderfully good!
I think there is a need for reality check. Not the one where we realize how tough life is or how realistic we must be in 'planning' our lives. After all, God works all things in the good of those who loves Him (Romans 8:28). But it's really the comprehension of what the life of a persecuted Christian is like: Imagine having the limbs chopped off for not renouncing the faith; or try imagining underground churched gathering for 8 hours or even more daily just to seek God; or try picturing the ostracism from family for taking on the faith; or perhaps becoming a subject of hate crime; abuse; threats; outcasting; deaths. Now, try imagining lives in other parts of the globe (not even necessarily Christian): having to walk many hours just to reach the nearest water source; wading through swamps and perhaps also through threats of crocs encounter just to travel from point to point; sleeping in housing conditions where hygiene standards are nowhere near even an E in Hawker standard (I have not seen an 'E' before though); or perhaps try imaging the precarious state of each meal being a possible last meal due to gun fires, poverty, poor hygiene or diseases.
Now, with all these images, I want to remind us that at this point in time, there're many someones out there in many areas not known to us, where each of the conditions that I have mentioned above, and even more that I might have missed out or been unaware of, that are taking place. As I type the post, things are happening, and lives are being lived in these areas.
We might be glad that we stay in Singapore, that we are fortunate and that yea, they are pathetic and I feel for them, but let it stay at that. I am comfortable where I am. I may or may not be a Christian, but life is cool. It can be stressful sometimes, but hey I do get my occasional breaks and escapades or time out, whatever the term, but I'm satisfied where I am. Now comes the mind-blowing part: Jesus lives amongst them! Yes, He did and still does and will continue to do so. As much as He loves us, He loves them as well! Wow!
My heart sank many times whenever I hear about all these, but days of cruising and chasing after what the world has to offer (voluntary or not), always helped me to forget a little of that. Then it sunk again, this time with a heart string tugging so strong. What does being a Christian mean? And being given the privilege and that kind of authority, as I learn, as I grow, as I mature, it is time to be more involved! In the Kingdom of God, it's about adopting the Kingdom culture, and bringing the Kingdom of God with us into our workplace, our school, our family, our church, and everywhere else the we go!
Isaiah 6:8
"Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, 'whom shall I send? And who will go for us?' And I said. 'Here am I. Send me!'"
If not me, then who; if not here, then where; if not now; then when?
With Jesus's best blessings and His deepest love,
Judah
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Saturday, May 5, 2012
An Authority that has been given to us!
1 John 4:4 "You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world."1 Peter 5:8"Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."
Point of sharing is the power of our conviction/belief. It is known that the evil one no longer has power over us since his fall from heavens. Even from the beginning. And his ways are deception to con us into lending him the authority that has been given to us (we are made in God's image, given a share of His power). So when we succumb to fear, doubt or worries and all the bad things that are not from God, we let him gain a foothold in our lives and we go in agreement with him, lending him our power to thwart God's plan for us. So let us stand fast and discerning. Whether it being ourselves or our loved ones, let none of the bad feelings have a grip onto us. Let us not will bad things into fruition- death, sickness, diseases, failures, setbacks, fears- let us stand in authority and bind them with the Word of God and stand in victory that has been given us.
Note: it is good to want to be right, and listen to the right voice and all. But even fears in the form of fearing to hear wrong, fearing to make the wrong decisions have not come from God. The only fear we need to have is the fear of God! Likewise for doubt, for our confidence is in Christ Jesus. Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see."
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Thursday, May 3, 2012
Post-procrastination
Daddy,
Is there a conference where you just stay up all night to pray and it spans over many nights? I had a dream earlier on where I had a recall of such a thing taking place in Expo. Now that I am much more awake, I know that it didn't really happen but earlier on it felt so real, and I was just so looking forward to it. I mean in the dream I was talking to my sister and mother about preparing ourselves for it AGAIN for the following year, meaning it did not really happen, but in the dream I had another memory that I had done it before for this year's Chinese New Year. It felt good!
I have been struggling. For a long period, I could not really launch myself into actions, frequently letting myself be drawn to distraction or excuses. I could not embark on a spiritual trip, could not write, could not read. Within myself was an awful fear and worry, that I was wasting my time away. So I really want to thank God for now, like really now, that You've helped me pull out from that reluctance. It still is not flowing, but at least it's a start. (I can go on rambling, but the key is really to listen and obey).
Drama #1: This is a testimony (Evan said in Hebrews it means do it again, but I certainly hope not). Finals were unplanned but all of them crammed nicely into a week, which would have been lovely considering that I would enjoy a good well-deserved one-week break before heading back to Navy. But the fact that I was badly ill made it tormenting. How I had to sit through 2 papers in a day with fever running high at 38.3 and a bad diarrhea counts of 15 the night before was pure miraculous, though definitely not enjoyable. Spinning head on essays, perhaps the one good thing is that you don't think too much. Joke aside, it had really been by God's grace that I was able to come through. Really thankful! (and am sure that the demonstration of that same kind of grace or even greater is characteristic of my God, and it sure will happen AGAIN)
Drama #2: Joel's 21st. It was something that I had looked forward to. With it tying in together with the end of my finals made it an even more appealing anticipation. But what happened that night- a near death experience, a possible murder. It left me thinking, about the million and one possibilities (it's not healthy to do so, but it helped me realize so much, almost like how Solomon had put it- like a speck of dust, it's blown and gone). Really thank God for protection and mercy shown to the family. Indeed,a blessing in disguise: I look forward in anticipation of the goods that will come out from this.
Drama #3: Sticking close behind the influence of the Letters To God, I watched the Courageous last night. A powerful movie about fathers and fathering, which made me realize the privilege I've been given to father the young lives, also some over values which mean so much to us. I look forward to a growth and a burgeoning friendship that will take us to the next level. Watch Courageous the movie!!!
Dear God,
I recognize the importance of remembering and reminding myself of Your goodness in my life. But here is a man who so often forgets or succumbs to laziness to even just pen those things down. So Lord, I pray for You to work within me. Remove all that are not from You, and fill it up with all that is from You. I yearn to be like You, and I apologize for the bad that I have done, and for the disappointing moments I have been guilty of. But Lord, You are a renewing God and I trust that by Your strength, I will come through, that I may not be perfect, but in You and through You I will continue to improve and be more like You each time. Thank You for the assurance and trust that You've given me the privilege to impact lives in various aspects in this life of mine, and I pray for You to continue to guide and lead me that I may be a good channel to channel Your love and Your values to those around. May I be a pleasing sacrifice to You that my life will testify to Your love for humanity, that all glory will be unto You.
I want to pray for R that You'll just shine Your light unto the path ahead of him that indeed in every step he takes whether he turns to the right or to the left, Your Word will guide him from within. Will You just soften the hearts of many, that they will not only see You, but also stir up the desire from within to come to know You.
I pray for the group, that indeed in the midst of all that we do, let Your pleasure be the driving force behind. Will You just help us to develop into a praying community, that all that we do, are, will be, are centered upon You.
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!
Is there a conference where you just stay up all night to pray and it spans over many nights? I had a dream earlier on where I had a recall of such a thing taking place in Expo. Now that I am much more awake, I know that it didn't really happen but earlier on it felt so real, and I was just so looking forward to it. I mean in the dream I was talking to my sister and mother about preparing ourselves for it AGAIN for the following year, meaning it did not really happen, but in the dream I had another memory that I had done it before for this year's Chinese New Year. It felt good!
I have been struggling. For a long period, I could not really launch myself into actions, frequently letting myself be drawn to distraction or excuses. I could not embark on a spiritual trip, could not write, could not read. Within myself was an awful fear and worry, that I was wasting my time away. So I really want to thank God for now, like really now, that You've helped me pull out from that reluctance. It still is not flowing, but at least it's a start. (I can go on rambling, but the key is really to listen and obey).
Drama #1: This is a testimony (Evan said in Hebrews it means do it again, but I certainly hope not). Finals were unplanned but all of them crammed nicely into a week, which would have been lovely considering that I would enjoy a good well-deserved one-week break before heading back to Navy. But the fact that I was badly ill made it tormenting. How I had to sit through 2 papers in a day with fever running high at 38.3 and a bad diarrhea counts of 15 the night before was pure miraculous, though definitely not enjoyable. Spinning head on essays, perhaps the one good thing is that you don't think too much. Joke aside, it had really been by God's grace that I was able to come through. Really thankful! (and am sure that the demonstration of that same kind of grace or even greater is characteristic of my God, and it sure will happen AGAIN)
Drama #2: Joel's 21st. It was something that I had looked forward to. With it tying in together with the end of my finals made it an even more appealing anticipation. But what happened that night- a near death experience, a possible murder. It left me thinking, about the million and one possibilities (it's not healthy to do so, but it helped me realize so much, almost like how Solomon had put it- like a speck of dust, it's blown and gone). Really thank God for protection and mercy shown to the family. Indeed,a blessing in disguise: I look forward in anticipation of the goods that will come out from this.
Drama #3: Sticking close behind the influence of the Letters To God, I watched the Courageous last night. A powerful movie about fathers and fathering, which made me realize the privilege I've been given to father the young lives, also some over values which mean so much to us. I look forward to a growth and a burgeoning friendship that will take us to the next level. Watch Courageous the movie!!!
Dear God,
I recognize the importance of remembering and reminding myself of Your goodness in my life. But here is a man who so often forgets or succumbs to laziness to even just pen those things down. So Lord, I pray for You to work within me. Remove all that are not from You, and fill it up with all that is from You. I yearn to be like You, and I apologize for the bad that I have done, and for the disappointing moments I have been guilty of. But Lord, You are a renewing God and I trust that by Your strength, I will come through, that I may not be perfect, but in You and through You I will continue to improve and be more like You each time. Thank You for the assurance and trust that You've given me the privilege to impact lives in various aspects in this life of mine, and I pray for You to continue to guide and lead me that I may be a good channel to channel Your love and Your values to those around. May I be a pleasing sacrifice to You that my life will testify to Your love for humanity, that all glory will be unto You.
I want to pray for R that You'll just shine Your light unto the path ahead of him that indeed in every step he takes whether he turns to the right or to the left, Your Word will guide him from within. Will You just soften the hearts of many, that they will not only see You, but also stir up the desire from within to come to know You.
I pray for the group, that indeed in the midst of all that we do, let Your pleasure be the driving force behind. Will You just help us to develop into a praying community, that all that we do, are, will be, are centered upon You.
In Jesus's most precious name I pray,
Amen!
Your child,
Judah
Friday, April 20, 2012
Just a small peek*
I went back to my old blog to take a look and found links to some of my friends' old blogs- so nostalgic, feels so silly- all of us were that much younger just a short while back!
I must have been crazy. Finals are in a week, but I'm feeling the peace. I haven't prepared much, that is an understatement by the way (I am severely lacking in preparation). Not that I have been doing anything fruitful- just a lot of distraction, inability to focus, bad stints in the head, and ill-discipline. One side I just really want to say that I will go by faith and rely on God's strength, but that trade-off doesn't look justified in any sense. After all, those time that I have "squandered" away had not helped/served His purpose in any sense. "It's by grace and not by works..." So they said.
"My Redeemer" plays in the background, and it goes "I believe~, I believe!" Regardless of the context, I just want to put my trust and hope in my God! Whatever, however it may turn out, help the helpless me, and let me be convinced of Your plan for me.
I must have been crazy. Finals are in a week, but I'm feeling the peace. Tomorrow I will be taking the early ferry to Tanjong Pinang (my forth time there I think) for my church's mission outreach. I had wanted to commit after my commission, but it's been 9 months (ie. 9 trips) and the misses I had in between only serve to prick at my conscience. Yet, exams didn't feel like a good excuse, and I will be going ahead nevertheless. O Lord, bless Your people! May Your presence be fill the place, and the joy that comes from You overflow in the town!
I must have been crazy. I am only 21, but I am already a Godpa. My God son is 13 years old, a divine arrangement that never fails to marvel me- that the age gap is the same as the one I have with my Godpa. It is very exciting- for my God son and for my cell. That day I have finally decided on the name of my cell- MY cell. "MY" connotes an ownership that each individual will have a claim of that cell, and "MY" abbreviates for "aM Yours"- the humble submission of each individual to His sovereignty! I hope they like it, and I certainly pray that they are just as excited to embark on this new phase in life. O Lord, grant me the wisdom! May Your Spirit guide me as each of these lives, I take on to participate in their moulding. Just as Solomon humbly cried out to You, who am I indeed, that I should be worthy to lead this great people of Yours. Will You just teach me Your ways, and may this cell grow to glorify You!
I must have been crazy, crazy in the Lord's name!The joy that comes from Him, the source of peace that I tap from, the hope that I have in Him- crazy joy is a rational response to everything that may seem irrational!
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| Summer's green; a toddler's glean. New steps into an adventure; growth of faith hits a difficult fixture. Darting seconds, life's evolution escapes an attention; Judah reckons, memory theater screens the childhood's animation. Fondness, boy smiles; Goodness, he watches the thousand miles. The repacking of faith; a joy not of the world. A hope I haith; O boy! It's greater beyond gold, incense or myrrh! 1 Corinthians 2:14 "The man without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned." |
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
When I see not, then faith shall be my eye.
I am a turning-4-years-old Christian, and through this period of getting to know Him, I have been transformed in some ways which had pretty much evaded my attention. My attitude toward life, toward friends, toward people around me, toward myself, toward situation, have all taken a revolution. I dare not say I have become more holy, but I certainly hope that I have grown closer to Him, and the testament that I have become more God-centred is definitely a most-welcome compliment. And all these, I have only gratitude for Him.
13th May 2012.
It was Friday, the 13th. The tabooed day of the folklore.
Whether that particular day had been inauspicious, I have come through numerous of such. Statistics have it that it's not that difficult for a month's 13th day to fall on a Friday after all. However, this particular one, this one in May 2012, gave me a good prompt.
The monthly prayer and praise took place a week later than usual due to the first Friday of the month being Good Friday. It was an unusual environment, and I was a different me from the previous time I was there. 4 years on, during which I have surrendered much, yet blessed much more; hurt much, yet comforted much more; lost much, yet gained much more, that night was going to be another one of those big nights.
Pastor prophesied over me. "A different path, a different journey, one that is different from everyone; there could be troubles, struggles or sacrifices, but it will bring glory; glory to Him."
Pleasure, honor, prestige, excitement- this revelation would have been all of these if it had not been a second time. Slightly more than a month back, someone else told me almost exactly the same thing. It had seem like a heads-up for me more than anything else. After all, I am still a fresh undergrad, and even after that I would have a 4 year bond to fulfill. However good/cool it sounded, to me it all belongs to a distant future, of which I would gladly just wait in anticipation. 2 months on, it came back again. But why? IF it's for the distant future when I'm finally 28, then why that revelation again? Reminder? Prompt? Urge?
Then came 2 or 3 sleepless nights (I cannot remember), the first of which gave me a weird impression. Medical condition, sounds like something that came from myself (except that this time round, it didn't feel like it). The pieces of jig-saw will fall into place eventually, but for a while I was knocked over. Confusion took over, hesitation, reluctance- the thing was buried, but the faith is returning. He will see me through indeed.
I am a turning-4-years-old Christian, and through this period of getting to know Him, I have been transformed in some ways which had pretty much evaded my attention. My attitude toward life, toward friends, toward people around me, toward myself, toward situation, have all taken a revolution. I dare not say I have become more holy, but I certainly hope that I have grown closer to Him, and the testament that I have become more God-centred is definitely a most-welcome compliment. And all these, I have only gratitude for Him.
13th May 2012.
It was Friday, the 13th. The tabooed day of the folklore.
Whether that particular day had been inauspicious, I have come through numerous of such. Statistics have it that it's not that difficult for a month's 13th day to fall on a Friday after all. However, this particular one, this one in May 2012, gave me a good prompt.
The monthly prayer and praise took place a week later than usual due to the first Friday of the month being Good Friday. It was an unusual environment, and I was a different me from the previous time I was there. 4 years on, during which I have surrendered much, yet blessed much more; hurt much, yet comforted much more; lost much, yet gained much more, that night was going to be another one of those big nights.
Pastor prophesied over me. "A different path, a different journey, one that is different from everyone; there could be troubles, struggles or sacrifices, but it will bring glory; glory to Him."
Pleasure, honor, prestige, excitement- this revelation would have been all of these if it had not been a second time. Slightly more than a month back, someone else told me almost exactly the same thing. It had seem like a heads-up for me more than anything else. After all, I am still a fresh undergrad, and even after that I would have a 4 year bond to fulfill. However good/cool it sounded, to me it all belongs to a distant future, of which I would gladly just wait in anticipation. 2 months on, it came back again. But why? IF it's for the distant future when I'm finally 28, then why that revelation again? Reminder? Prompt? Urge?
Then came 2 or 3 sleepless nights (I cannot remember), the first of which gave me a weird impression. Medical condition, sounds like something that came from myself (except that this time round, it didn't feel like it). The pieces of jig-saw will fall into place eventually, but for a while I was knocked over. Confusion took over, hesitation, reluctance- the thing was buried, but the faith is returning. He will see me through indeed.
Friday, April 6, 2012
Maundy Thursday
Daddy,
Season comes season goes, but You alone stand still and do not waver. I have had my fair bit of spiritual highs and lows, and in all these I just want to give You thanks for all of them. Even occasions where I might have developed the tendency to grow numb towards, occasions where I simply just overlook and fail to capture Your delicate movements in my life, occasions where I take for granted and assume one too many matter-of-course, I just want to commit that aspect of my life back into Your hands. Lord, take it from me and may You just grant me the sensitivity, the compassionate heart, and help me to understand and perceive the right feelings I should sense, the ways of Jesus. Help me to continue to be hopeful and joyful in the knowledge that You are near, and help me to understand Your heart.
On this maundy Thursday, when a certain friend question about the significance of such a term, Lord, I just want to commit this day into Your hands. It's a day of thanksgiving, an ironical arrangement when the best piece of news has to take place on the same day as occurrence of the Heaven's tragedy. O lord, how should we, that You would give Your Son for us when we were still sinners. We have so much iniquities- even at this moment as I write this blog, my ungratefulness prompted distractions from sneezing and even a lackluster efforts for a deliberate dedication- of time, of attention, of self.
Some years back, I watched Passion of the Christ, and many commented that what You had gone through were many many times more- how can I fathom, but yet the knowledge faded with time. Like how You had been disappointed in the Garden of Gethsemane- Lord, help me to not doze off, and at each command and each calling You have given me, I seek that You will continually fill me and replenish, for a divine source of strength I have in You, and I want to claim the promise You made about those who are weary can come to You and not faint. So Lord, I pray for a rebuilding, that You will continually search my heart, and much like the God's chisel, You will just break me down in accordance to Your will and design.
Lord, those rant about the wake, even those about the closure, I have gone through a bit, nothing comparable, yet I pray for favor and discernment that those will indeed be pleasing in Your sight, that all those will bring glory to Your name as I seek to act in obedience.
Lord, as I come to the end of the semester, and perhaps the transition to a new season, I pray for revelation. Each stint of excitement I have had when serving You, I pray for You to sustain them and keep the flame burning for You. That each time, I will find joy in the anticipation for Your great works to be unfold, and through all these, I want to give You thanks for the privilege to be an active participant and observer of Your good works!
I just want to pray for R, E, B, K that indeed, You will just guard their heart, and as they go through this season in life, this season of growing and seeking and exploring new things, You will reign mightily in their lives. In Jesus name, I proclaim Your protection upon their development, that indeed boundaries will be set up to keep them within the Holy standards that You have yearned for. Lord, purify their heart, and raise them up to become true men and woman who are after Your heart. Lord, I commit them into Your hands, and pray indeed, for Your favor to be upon them, that indeed in all things, they will be able to see traces of Your mighty intervention, that they will have no worries, but to just go in faith and hope to proclaim boldly Your goodness in their lives!
All these, I just want to continue to give You praise and thanks!
In Christ's most precious name I pray,
Amen!
Season comes season goes, but You alone stand still and do not waver. I have had my fair bit of spiritual highs and lows, and in all these I just want to give You thanks for all of them. Even occasions where I might have developed the tendency to grow numb towards, occasions where I simply just overlook and fail to capture Your delicate movements in my life, occasions where I take for granted and assume one too many matter-of-course, I just want to commit that aspect of my life back into Your hands. Lord, take it from me and may You just grant me the sensitivity, the compassionate heart, and help me to understand and perceive the right feelings I should sense, the ways of Jesus. Help me to continue to be hopeful and joyful in the knowledge that You are near, and help me to understand Your heart.
On this maundy Thursday, when a certain friend question about the significance of such a term, Lord, I just want to commit this day into Your hands. It's a day of thanksgiving, an ironical arrangement when the best piece of news has to take place on the same day as occurrence of the Heaven's tragedy. O lord, how should we, that You would give Your Son for us when we were still sinners. We have so much iniquities- even at this moment as I write this blog, my ungratefulness prompted distractions from sneezing and even a lackluster efforts for a deliberate dedication- of time, of attention, of self.
Some years back, I watched Passion of the Christ, and many commented that what You had gone through were many many times more- how can I fathom, but yet the knowledge faded with time. Like how You had been disappointed in the Garden of Gethsemane- Lord, help me to not doze off, and at each command and each calling You have given me, I seek that You will continually fill me and replenish, for a divine source of strength I have in You, and I want to claim the promise You made about those who are weary can come to You and not faint. So Lord, I pray for a rebuilding, that You will continually search my heart, and much like the God's chisel, You will just break me down in accordance to Your will and design.
Lord, those rant about the wake, even those about the closure, I have gone through a bit, nothing comparable, yet I pray for favor and discernment that those will indeed be pleasing in Your sight, that all those will bring glory to Your name as I seek to act in obedience.
Lord, as I come to the end of the semester, and perhaps the transition to a new season, I pray for revelation. Each stint of excitement I have had when serving You, I pray for You to sustain them and keep the flame burning for You. That each time, I will find joy in the anticipation for Your great works to be unfold, and through all these, I want to give You thanks for the privilege to be an active participant and observer of Your good works!
I just want to pray for R, E, B, K that indeed, You will just guard their heart, and as they go through this season in life, this season of growing and seeking and exploring new things, You will reign mightily in their lives. In Jesus name, I proclaim Your protection upon their development, that indeed boundaries will be set up to keep them within the Holy standards that You have yearned for. Lord, purify their heart, and raise them up to become true men and woman who are after Your heart. Lord, I commit them into Your hands, and pray indeed, for Your favor to be upon them, that indeed in all things, they will be able to see traces of Your mighty intervention, that they will have no worries, but to just go in faith and hope to proclaim boldly Your goodness in their lives!
All these, I just want to continue to give You praise and thanks!
In Christ's most precious name I pray,
Amen!
Your child,
Judah
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| The darkest moment in preparation; In Garden G. my Lord cried in desperation. A lonely forlorn figure, destined to be abandoned by even the closest disciple. "Spare me from this agony" my Lord plead, Yet with eyes fixed on the fulfillment of Your purpose, He humbly concede. "Let Your will be done", thus, the Love message has come. With Mercy lavished, the withholding of what we deserve; And Grace given, the outpouring of that we do not deserve. Matthew 26: 56 "But this has all taken place that the writings of the prophets might be fulfilled." |
Sunday, April 1, 2012
the good, the bad, the in-between
A taste of life- 人生的滋味－ 涩涩的，苦苦的，甜甜的，酸酸的。
三天，短暂的三天，仿佛经历生命快程列车 。一切的一切，毫无保留，赤裸裸的展现在我眼前。并非我所要求；若有选择，谁不希望人生这道菜只有单味－那就是甜。
It's been an eventful 3 days. How can I complain when the Libyans and the Malians are struggling to survive in hot waters each day; much less an overwhelmingly incomparable use of the term "eventful". I have been receiving newsletter update from Partners Intl and Samaritan's Purse, having made a couple of donations via the organization previously. 生活在水深火热之中，马利与黎巴嫩国民天天与枪火搏斗，生活之困苦若没亲身体会，又怎能明白? 或许科技发达；或许搓手无策，世间惨案播报的普遍率似乎替人类打了一计特强麻醉药，面对生命的流逝，我产生了一种默然。Lord Jesus, grant me the kind of compassion for Your people, and help me to be like You, that even I may be far, even I may not know them, help me to know how You feel, and help me to yearn for the salvation of many as You have done so.
I dare not make any audacious claim, but I guess it's a different kind of struggle altogether at this part of the world, something which most of what our people can comprehend, something closer to home; something closer to heart- Results, relationship, and the infrequent occurrences of deaths; the passing on of a close one.
生命中有许多moments. We always talk about capturing the special moments: a baby's first cry, the graduation day, the blissful wedding etc. 可是在我们捕抓的当儿，却也错过了许多的理所当然－父母的慈爱，妻子的体贴，孩子的孝顺。这样的时刻，常常都是 beyond words 的。 期盼好久的一个 closure, 四年困惑的解脱， as if to be glued on the lips. It was with so much difficulty and delay to get those words out- not much, but just enough to express what I needed. Now, I just need to form the resolve and cling onto it- to remind myself that this is how it has finally closed. A closed case indeed!
朋友父亲的丧礼，left me thinking about possibilities: would I have all these good words to say when it's finally my turn, how about his salvation.
啊，好漫长的一周，发生了太多太多。疯狂的时间表终于接近尾声。欢喜之余，人生的另一阶段也即将展开。蠢蠢欲动，那种感觉曰"excitement". 四个月前的预言；这的确是一个令人兴奋的一年。放下过去，embrace what is to come.
"God has already healed me; I just need to stop hurting myself."
三天，短暂的三天，仿佛经历生命快程列车 。一切的一切，毫无保留，赤裸裸的展现在我眼前。并非我所要求；若有选择，谁不希望人生这道菜只有单味－那就是甜。
It's been an eventful 3 days. How can I complain when the Libyans and the Malians are struggling to survive in hot waters each day; much less an overwhelmingly incomparable use of the term "eventful". I have been receiving newsletter update from Partners Intl and Samaritan's Purse, having made a couple of donations via the organization previously. 生活在水深火热之中，马利与黎巴嫩国民天天与枪火搏斗，生活之困苦若没亲身体会，又怎能明白? 或许科技发达；或许搓手无策，世间惨案播报的普遍率似乎替人类打了一计特强麻醉药，面对生命的流逝，我产生了一种默然。Lord Jesus, grant me the kind of compassion for Your people, and help me to be like You, that even I may be far, even I may not know them, help me to know how You feel, and help me to yearn for the salvation of many as You have done so.
I dare not make any audacious claim, but I guess it's a different kind of struggle altogether at this part of the world, something which most of what our people can comprehend, something closer to home; something closer to heart- Results, relationship, and the infrequent occurrences of deaths; the passing on of a close one.
生命中有许多moments. We always talk about capturing the special moments: a baby's first cry, the graduation day, the blissful wedding etc. 可是在我们捕抓的当儿，却也错过了许多的理所当然－父母的慈爱，妻子的体贴，孩子的孝顺。这样的时刻，常常都是 beyond words 的。 期盼好久的一个 closure, 四年困惑的解脱， as if to be glued on the lips. It was with so much difficulty and delay to get those words out- not much, but just enough to express what I needed. Now, I just need to form the resolve and cling onto it- to remind myself that this is how it has finally closed. A closed case indeed!
朋友父亲的丧礼，left me thinking about possibilities: would I have all these good words to say when it's finally my turn, how about his salvation.
啊，好漫长的一周，发生了太多太多。疯狂的时间表终于接近尾声。欢喜之余，人生的另一阶段也即将展开。蠢蠢欲动，那种感觉曰"excitement". 四个月前的预言；这的确是一个令人兴奋的一年。放下过去，embrace what is to come.
"God has already healed me; I just need to stop hurting myself."
~Judah, March 2012
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