10- contention

Daddy,
You are most glorified in me when I am most satisfied in You. I really do wonder if it's me not wanting it enough, not trying hard enough, been using You as an excuse, but as I sat on the hot seat, all these had not matter. If choosing You and feeling good after choosing You means that I have been taking the easy way out; if giving more of my time to a devotion with You means that I have not worked hard enough, then that is indeed what I will choose to be- to be non-ambitious, to be lazy, to be irresponsible. At least, You are most glorified in me when I am most satisfied in You! 
The paper was tough, and I worked hard at the last minute, choosing instead to do my part for the team and even attending prayer meeting at the 11th hour, finally giving way at 1 or 2. I haven't been perfect, and there has definitely been occasions when I succumbed to sin, but all in all, I will choose to trust. For all things happen for the good of those who love You! Daddy, see my heart and cleanse it if need as You deem necessary! Lord, I commit myself into Your hands. 
Today is my sister's birthday. I pray for your blessings to be upon her. Continue to mould her in Your likeness and I pray for Your tolerance and gentleness to be upon me as I seek to be a good brother. Lord, help me. I know it's a long process, but You are all powerful and almighty!
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your  child,

Judah

Season of love,
the Heaven's Darling's birth.

Ephesians 4: 2- 3
"Be completely humble and gentle;
be patient, bearing with one another in love.
Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace."

11-Stood by me

Daddy,
I wanna thank You for all the things! It's been an awesome journey, albeit littered with disappointments and frustrations, but You have been faithful throughout. Just as the declaration was made, that promise I covenanted, this is the last, and I will be filling this up with You and only You. Thank You for such beautiful memories and the joy and excitement! The adrenaline rush earlier on meant much, as a farewell gift or a retirement present. Thank You Lord for Your protection and for the understanding. I have been lousy with time management but You stood by and waited. Thank You Father!
The revelation and the transition into a new season puts me on my toes. I am nervy, perhaps a little uncertain, so Lord I pray for Your affirmation, that I have not made up this Help me to look to You, really!
As for the cell that is developing, I'm slowly beginning to get a grasp of the whole picture. Lord, continue to help me see, as I choose to follow You and be like You, help me to see like You, help me to hear like You, may Your compassion be upon me, that out of love, my leadership for this group of people will flow.

Your child,

Judah

"That's all folks," the childhood Looney Tunes sounds,
1, 2, down-up, pop the stunts come down.
A chapter in life,
For excellence we strive.
Pleasant memories tucked into the corner,
Reminisce we will, in our hearts we are the winners!

Philippians 4: 8
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable,
whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable,
if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.

11- Response

11- twinkle

Daddy,
Some days back I saw a stay above the roofs; that same night, everyone reported the sighting of a beautiful moon. It's an intriguing sight- the millions of light years between us laden with Your creations and wonders. I was mesmerized! Yet at that instant, it was that one star that caught my eye, I named her "twinkle". 
A month ago I was talking about an unprecedented excitement I sensed from You. Right now, I don't know whether it has already come to past, but the surprising progression of matters did bring about much joy. That dedication of those books to You is a masterstroke to lift up my spirits!
2 days back, I talked to C about the existence of a short season- a season too short? I wondered. I have no idea what sort of seasons I have come through, but at least I stand in the assurance that You have walked me through 21years of uncertainty with unwavering faith. Right now, as the season for discipline and perhaps celibacy are seemingly coming to an end, I think I stand slightly refreshed of a new beginning. A self-declared/ God-prompted sabbatical blessed me much! And as it seems, programs and events are flowing in, a responsibility only God-given strength can reciprocate. Yes, Your grace has shown me how I can be used, my ability utilized! The burgeoning heart, and the expanding desire. Lord, despite my absence for over a week, spent in rest, I thank You for today's sermon on Joshua and Jericho- a reliance, a trust, a commitment, an urgency. 

Your child,

Judah

What lies ahead after crossing over;
40 years of wonder finally expecting the clover.
Things can only get better;
a Jericho in the way ain't no matter.
Ask not if He's for us or against us,
Instead question how ready we thus.

Isaiah 55: 11
"So is My Word that goes out from My mouth:
it will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it."

18- trying to hear

Daddy,
There always seem to be a moment or two when I seemingly am supposed to be at some other places, some places apart from where I am comfortable, only to discover the fruitfulness of such obedience to really enjoy the unfolding of a plan. I am glad, and I continue to seek. Lord, today has been a long day, a little too taut perhaps, where I had to commute between the extremities of the island. Tired, exhausted, littered with a crack of smile and the sweetness of a little joy when everything fell into place. I think I am just so thankful today.
Lord, I have started on the book again and as much as I sought to seek You that much, Lord, I want to trust that You have already spoken, so just help me to know it's You. I have been worried about those voices in the head, even more so, the implication of a mental state- abnormal psychology, but I will just have to keep faith. Lord, help me to know.
As the books are being processed Lord, I just want to give You thanks for the inspirations! I pray for You to speak through my works. Lord, all glory to You and You alone, so Lord please help me to just commit on my part. Let me not take things into my own hands, but really entrust this entire opportunity and initiative into Your mighty hands. Help me to trust in Your sovereign plans, and let You take charge here. Lord, from here, I pray for the potential readers of this book, that You will speak to them and reveal to them. Touch their hearts and open up their eyes so that they too, will see Your goodness. Lord, I also pray for a discerning heart, help me to see who these books will minister too. Guide me as I make the distribution and may Your blessings flow out from me!
Finally Lord, I continue to pray for Your presence to dwell in me. I pray for A Godly encounter!
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

A stroke of the mighty hands;
A tale that has begin.
In abundance the puzzle of life pieces together;
Of radiance the story declares glory unto the Father!

Galatians 2: 20
"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live,
but Christ lives in me.
The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me."

18- Having faith, having fun

Daddy,
I am so sorry to have hurt You this way, that just as we were on a high, I had to put such an abrupt halt to such a wonderful development of a relationship with You. Lord, it is so easy for me to want to replace of fill Your space in my life with other things. Lord, sometimes things are really difficult- when I don't seem to be able to see You or hear You, or even just to feel You. Sometimes, I wonder why, why do others have all the encounters, but my request for just a little sign from You has to be rebuffed time and again. It hurts very badly, really. Perhaps that is root of that unbelief, that by my human eye and human brain, I cannot perceive the wonder of Your Great GREAT Love for us. Lord, indeed help my unbelief.
I thank You for today's message, that You are not only able, but also a willing God! Help me to run to You and to commit to You more each day; more of myself, more of my life, more of my everything. Lord, take it.
Just as I seek to receive the gift of healing to day Lord, I pray for You to work through me. Help me to avail myself to Your works and use me in Your ways, Lord. Despite the lack of a breakthrough, Lord Your miracle has already happened and by faith I want to be like the man who shouted "I have been healed, praise the Lord". I want to acknowledge Your goodness in my life and help me to go forth by faith. Right here, I speak healing onto my mom's backbone. In Jesus's name, I reject the injury and reject the pain, and I want to claim the healing for this injury, that by the power of my almighty God, she will receive complete healing!
I also want to uphold ASE in prayer. Indeed a mighty movement is happening within, so Lord, I pray for You to continue to show us, show us Your plan! Reveal to us and help us to abide in Your works!
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your unworthy child,

Judah

Light of the world, stepped into darkness;
 gold, incense and myrrh, the wise men's gladness.
A Savior King, my heart will sing;
Almighty God, gracious Lord;
my unbelief I leave at the foot of the cross;
into Your charge I commit my life to the utmost.

John 20: 29
"Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed;
blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.""

24- Finale

Daddy,
The final countdown has arrived. As I round off the compilation for my birthday, I pray for Your blessings to be upon that initiative. May my idea be pleasing to You that You will adopt it and make it a part of Your will. Lord, please use this opportunity mightily and help me to rely on You more each day. I pray for Your light to shine through these poems that they will point the readers to You. The excitement I wanna keep faith, so Lord, I pray for You to sustain it. Help me stay alert and look out and listen out, when You speak let me hear You. 
I continue to pray for the gifts of tongue and Lord will You just reveal to me Your plan for us all. You are the great Daddy who has blessed me so abundantly, so Lord I wanna continue to trust in Your provision and sustenance, that You will always keep me close to You, and that my heart will always incline towards You.
In Jesus's name I pray,
Amen!

Your child,

Judah

Undeserving we stood in the midst;
Betrayal bought when Judas kissed.
A prophecy of old, fulfilled through the Son of Man who abandoned His throne for love's sake;
Mercy we hold, stilled in awe, my burden I leave at the foot of the cross my sin will make.
Agape love, from heavens above;
21 years of blessings, today I hear.
With gratitude I praise Your Holy Name;
to multitude Your goodness spreads Your mighty fame.

John 3: 16
"For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son,
that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life."